In space...
I don*t know whats been going on with me, I*ve been really upset or just out of it, i stare in space a lot.. i don*t know whats going on. To the point that i really don*t even feel like eating ...kind off odd, and i just find myself alone thinking about things. i feel empty.........confusion
Well nobody can find my sister.. i think she is in jail, i know she has a few warrants out. Nobody seems to want to beleive me when i say i think she is in jail.. She is usually at least at my house or my brothers, but nowhere to be found. I kno that the other day she said something about going to new york. So if she isn*t in jail she is most likely in new york. My sister has lived in ever place famous ppl live in and loves things like that.
I*ve been thinking alot.. and i used to be in all that modeling stuff, and i really want to get into it again, but actually stick with it. I have to make a little portfolio and said it to this agency. Hopefully i get in with it. I need extra money, and everyone who has known me knows that i have always wanted to be a model.. everyone! I think its just something i was born to do. But the only thing is that i would only be able to go out of town on weekends,. bc i work all week and im keeping that job fer sure, so this modeling thing will have to work around it. But im just sick of being lazy and never going all the way through so i think im going to do something for myself for once and actually stick with it. Also i have to start college..im confused on that also..hmmppffff :*(
**Don*t know what i*m doing this weekend.. kind of confused, last nite i did nothing at all just went to bed. For some reason i feel like doing nothing but then when im doing nothing i want to do something.. i don*t know.. here i go again feeling weird and confused. I don't know i don't know i don't know! :(
Yeah my birthday is coming this wednesday and i don*t know what going on, i will probably get all ready just bc its my birthday and probably go out to eat or something, i really have no ideas, and nobody has really given me any either so i have no clue, i think were actually "going out" for my birthday some weekend this september..not actually sure which one.. maybe labor day bc all my friends will be here besides one.
~My brother has been coming over alot lately.. probably bc he is not with that stupid ass bitch. I donT like her one bit, and if he ever decides to talk to her again which i highly doubt it bc as far as i know he doesn*t want to speak with her or see her, but if i see her i will tell her what is on my mind and won*t hold myself back. I already warned my family. so hopefully no suprises.
As we all know i have a piece of shit phone... yeah 2 more buttons popped off today and my screen wouldn*t work so i*m going up to josh*z work since he workz at sprint and he is hooking me up with a phone bc i hate this piece of crap i have.. i paid so much for that phone and it does nothing but constantly give me problems!!! GRR im getting mad just talking about it.
**********Today i was driving and it was raining soo hard that i couldn*t even see where the hell i was going, i was literally doing 5mph.. And then my car suddenly started swurving and going every which way and i was trying to control it and finally it stopped, its soo low to the ground that if any water hits it, then my car gets thrown, and my tires for some reason don*t like water. So if i can*t even drive it in the rain then how the hell am i going to drive it in the snow???? I YIYI!! bc we all know winter will be here soon so i don*T know what to do.
*Finally talked to my friend christiana that i haven*t talk to in a long time!
Well im going to go think some more and take a shower.. *Leave comments if you must!!, bye all!!
Well nobody can find my sister.. i think she is in jail, i know she has a few warrants out. Nobody seems to want to beleive me when i say i think she is in jail.. She is usually at least at my house or my brothers, but nowhere to be found. I kno that the other day she said something about going to new york. So if she isn*t in jail she is most likely in new york. My sister has lived in ever place famous ppl live in and loves things like that.
I*ve been thinking alot.. and i used to be in all that modeling stuff, and i really want to get into it again, but actually stick with it. I have to make a little portfolio and said it to this agency. Hopefully i get in with it. I need extra money, and everyone who has known me knows that i have always wanted to be a model.. everyone! I think its just something i was born to do. But the only thing is that i would only be able to go out of town on weekends,. bc i work all week and im keeping that job fer sure, so this modeling thing will have to work around it. But im just sick of being lazy and never going all the way through so i think im going to do something for myself for once and actually stick with it. Also i have to start college..im confused on that also..hmmppffff :*(
**Don*t know what i*m doing this weekend.. kind of confused, last nite i did nothing at all just went to bed. For some reason i feel like doing nothing but then when im doing nothing i want to do something.. i don*t know.. here i go again feeling weird and confused. I don't know i don't know i don't know! :(
Yeah my birthday is coming this wednesday and i don*t know what going on, i will probably get all ready just bc its my birthday and probably go out to eat or something, i really have no ideas, and nobody has really given me any either so i have no clue, i think were actually "going out" for my birthday some weekend this september..not actually sure which one.. maybe labor day bc all my friends will be here besides one.
~My brother has been coming over alot lately.. probably bc he is not with that stupid ass bitch. I donT like her one bit, and if he ever decides to talk to her again which i highly doubt it bc as far as i know he doesn*t want to speak with her or see her, but if i see her i will tell her what is on my mind and won*t hold myself back. I already warned my family. so hopefully no suprises.
As we all know i have a piece of shit phone... yeah 2 more buttons popped off today and my screen wouldn*t work so i*m going up to josh*z work since he workz at sprint and he is hooking me up with a phone bc i hate this piece of crap i have.. i paid so much for that phone and it does nothing but constantly give me problems!!! GRR im getting mad just talking about it.
**********Today i was driving and it was raining soo hard that i couldn*t even see where the hell i was going, i was literally doing 5mph.. And then my car suddenly started swurving and going every which way and i was trying to control it and finally it stopped, its soo low to the ground that if any water hits it, then my car gets thrown, and my tires for some reason don*t like water. So if i can*t even drive it in the rain then how the hell am i going to drive it in the snow???? I YIYI!! bc we all know winter will be here soon so i don*T know what to do.
*Finally talked to my friend christiana that i haven*t talk to in a long time!
Well im going to go think some more and take a shower.. *Leave comments if you must!!, bye all!!