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so all summer i've been very torn over if i'm spending it in the right place or not.
i love living in the city and i feel more like i belong in pittsburgh now, then i did about six months ago. and i really do enjoy being independent and taking care of myself.
my job is simple but they love me and i can keep it through the school year which is also excellent.
emily has been a wonderful saving grace. without her i would be so alone and bored. pat is here as often as he can be, and if i had spent the summer at home things wouldn't have happened between us, and i'm really glad they did.
other people have visited, and it's always been pleasant. but i guess overall i feel very cut-off from everyone, especially my friends from home.
up until the beginning of this summer, i spent all my time around people unless i was sleeping or like showering. college obviously amped that up where i was either hanging out with someone or with my roommates, just never alone. the first time emily left for a couple hours, i had no communication with anyone for like three straight hours and it freaked me out.
i don't really know where i'm going with this. i'll never know what my summer would have been if i was home, because i decided to stay out here. everytime i weigh the pros & cons of each, it's balanced.
i guess summer after your freshman year of college is supposed to make you feel in limbo between two worlds. and even if i was like harry potter, i couldn't make the two hundred miles between harrisburg & pittsburgh a shorter distance.
it's over soon enough.
i love living in the city and i feel more like i belong in pittsburgh now, then i did about six months ago. and i really do enjoy being independent and taking care of myself.
my job is simple but they love me and i can keep it through the school year which is also excellent.
emily has been a wonderful saving grace. without her i would be so alone and bored. pat is here as often as he can be, and if i had spent the summer at home things wouldn't have happened between us, and i'm really glad they did.
other people have visited, and it's always been pleasant. but i guess overall i feel very cut-off from everyone, especially my friends from home.
up until the beginning of this summer, i spent all my time around people unless i was sleeping or like showering. college obviously amped that up where i was either hanging out with someone or with my roommates, just never alone. the first time emily left for a couple hours, i had no communication with anyone for like three straight hours and it freaked me out.
i don't really know where i'm going with this. i'll never know what my summer would have been if i was home, because i decided to stay out here. everytime i weigh the pros & cons of each, it's balanced.
i guess summer after your freshman year of college is supposed to make you feel in limbo between two worlds. and even if i was like harry potter, i couldn't make the two hundred miles between harrisburg & pittsburgh a shorter distance.
it's over soon enough.