been gone for a week...did anyone miss me?....no
im back from D.C......we got back last night around 9 i think
it was so much fun and i already miss everyone that i was used to seeing everyday alll day...but i am glad to be home[-kind of-] but yeah...
so i got home last night and found out that my great-grandma had died...she had a heart attack back in may and since then had 2 more and this time her kidneys shutdown and i think im ok with it..i dno how ill be emotionally when i go to the funeral just b/c it kills me to see all of my family upset and i dont deal good with death..no matter who it is.
my mom and nana are going to the funeral with me and its my real dads family...so thatll be interesting..and my stepmom will be there..most likely pilled out or something...so im just reaady to get all this over with...then right after the funeral on thursday i have to drive home and go to work until 10..and its my first day back in a month so it should be a real great day...hah.
then i dno what im doing for the rest of the week or when i need to work after that....
i feel like im in a slump in my life right now...it seems like everyone else is so happy with their lives and content and i just cant seem to find something or anything that makes me happy for more than 30mins..something always happens or my expectations are never met.
but for everyone who has things go good for them and are happy and have lots of good days...im happy for yall..maybe i can try and find it somehow
<3
it was so much fun and i already miss everyone that i was used to seeing everyday alll day...but i am glad to be home[-kind of-] but yeah...
so i got home last night and found out that my great-grandma had died...she had a heart attack back in may and since then had 2 more and this time her kidneys shutdown and i think im ok with it..i dno how ill be emotionally when i go to the funeral just b/c it kills me to see all of my family upset and i dont deal good with death..no matter who it is.
my mom and nana are going to the funeral with me and its my real dads family...so thatll be interesting..and my stepmom will be there..most likely pilled out or something...so im just reaady to get all this over with...then right after the funeral on thursday i have to drive home and go to work until 10..and its my first day back in a month so it should be a real great day...hah.
then i dno what im doing for the rest of the week or when i need to work after that....
i feel like im in a slump in my life right now...it seems like everyone else is so happy with their lives and content and i just cant seem to find something or anything that makes me happy for more than 30mins..something always happens or my expectations are never met.
but for everyone who has things go good for them and are happy and have lots of good days...im happy for yall..maybe i can try and find it somehow
<3