IT'S BEEN A ROUGH DAYS
It's been a while I opened a livejournal account. I think I've never posted any entry in this. I'm not familiar with this internet stuff either and it's been a busy life for me as a student. when I found someone's lj, I was kind of jealous because I don't know how to make mine as colourful as others. I think now it's the best moment to give it a try. So, shall we?
Well, for the last 7 weeks of my life, how should I describe it? Painful, sad, mad, confuse, heart-throbbing and I think still a lot more I couldn't say it. How could a person who you trusted the most suddenly ignore you and treat you like a stranger? I still cannot understand why that person do that to me. My own best friend, she has been a good friend until it changed 7 weeks ago. I thought she would be different from others that had treated me the same way, but she dissapointed me. About a year ago we have been close to each other. I was alone and so was she. Because we did many assignments together, we gradually became close.
Until now I keep thinking why she did this to me after she had found new friends. Is she already forgot about the person who always beside her when she was alone and always give a hand whenever she needed help? I could see I'm not as smart as her and her newly-closed friends, but could she pushed me away? At first, I couldn't let my hand go of her because I thought everything will be okay like it used to be, unfortunately it's not. I felt sadder as she kept ignoring me and spent more time with her new friends. If she ever count me in with them, I won't be so frustrated like this. If she ever count me in.But she did not. I think because I'm not even at par at her and her new friends, she could felt it's embarassing to be friend with me. So I decided to let her go. Probably it's the best for me and for her.
Now I want to started something new. I want to be new. I want to be more cheerful person, I want to have more friends, I want to be stronger than before. I want to be bolder than before, so that I can handle this challenging world better than before. I don't want to lose anymore, enough I fall the last time. It's time for me to raise and and to be stronger. For all my friends, wish me luck.
Well, for the last 7 weeks of my life, how should I describe it? Painful, sad, mad, confuse, heart-throbbing and I think still a lot more I couldn't say it. How could a person who you trusted the most suddenly ignore you and treat you like a stranger? I still cannot understand why that person do that to me. My own best friend, she has been a good friend until it changed 7 weeks ago. I thought she would be different from others that had treated me the same way, but she dissapointed me. About a year ago we have been close to each other. I was alone and so was she. Because we did many assignments together, we gradually became close.
Until now I keep thinking why she did this to me after she had found new friends. Is she already forgot about the person who always beside her when she was alone and always give a hand whenever she needed help? I could see I'm not as smart as her and her newly-closed friends, but could she pushed me away? At first, I couldn't let my hand go of her because I thought everything will be okay like it used to be, unfortunately it's not. I felt sadder as she kept ignoring me and spent more time with her new friends. If she ever count me in with them, I won't be so frustrated like this. If she ever count me in.But she did not. I think because I'm not even at par at her and her new friends, she could felt it's embarassing to be friend with me. So I decided to let her go. Probably it's the best for me and for her.
Now I want to started something new. I want to be new. I want to be more cheerful person, I want to have more friends, I want to be stronger than before. I want to be bolder than before, so that I can handle this challenging world better than before. I don't want to lose anymore, enough I fall the last time. It's time for me to raise and and to be stronger. For all my friends, wish me luck.