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We took Marek to South Bend Memorial Hospital, so he could be assessed by real doctors. It was pleasant - very reassuring to have physicians who didn't suck balls taking care of my son. He has air in his digestive tract, which is throwing everything out of whack, thus, the poopin' and the pukin'. Yucky stuff. He hasn't thrown up since yesterday, which makes me happy, because my lil man is getting better. He's been tempered again - a very good sign that he's on the mend.
A lot of cool things happened last night. I talked to some people, and had entirely truthful conversations. It is amazing sometimes, how you can have a relationship where nothing is off-limits. Ben and I had that sort of friendship at the flophouse. He'd tell me I looked like shit, and i'd tell him he was a shithead. It was very honest.
You find out a lot about people when you're truthful with them, and they afford you the same courtesy. Refreshing, it is.
So. Yes. I've been thinking a lot about regret - that nasty word I said I would never associate with any of my actions. Somehow, however, I am. I realize that i've done things that have simply made no sense, and have been no benefit to me whatsoever. You know? That sucks. I cannot seem to help but wonder, "what if..." in so many ways.
Very odd indeed.
A lot of cool things happened last night. I talked to some people, and had entirely truthful conversations. It is amazing sometimes, how you can have a relationship where nothing is off-limits. Ben and I had that sort of friendship at the flophouse. He'd tell me I looked like shit, and i'd tell him he was a shithead. It was very honest.
You find out a lot about people when you're truthful with them, and they afford you the same courtesy. Refreshing, it is.
So. Yes. I've been thinking a lot about regret - that nasty word I said I would never associate with any of my actions. Somehow, however, I am. I realize that i've done things that have simply made no sense, and have been no benefit to me whatsoever. You know? That sucks. I cannot seem to help but wonder, "what if..." in so many ways.
Very odd indeed.