woah
so i thought the reason i can't sleep right now is because of all the liquor i had tonight, but really, it's because of the double shot of espresso i had in my java chip frappachino at like 10 tonight. woo. who's a moron...
sooo...while i was laying in bed still drunk and dizzy and all hopped up on caffiene i did some thinking...i came to this realization tonight that it really doesn't matter to me as much as i thought it did that aaron isn't going to school. cause if he's really just not cut out for it than why should i push him to do something he really just can't. i guess it's really only an icing on the cake kind of thing, like maybe i think he'd look better to my family and all my friends that think a college education is the only way to get by in life otherwise you're a loser if you don't. but i realized tonight it doesn't matter. it doesn't mean he has no drive in life, he just has different goals and different ways of approaching them. i love aaron, all of him. i don't not love a part of him that doesn't want to go to school. i love every part of him. and i want to always be with him. the facts go like this: i'm going to be a teacher... my yearly income will be around 45,000 starting, plus i know by then i'll be earning a bare minimum of 12,000 a year doing mary kay, and that's only doing 2 good parties a week. if he's working part time and pplaying music on the side, we'll be totally well off. and we can have a little bitty farm and when we have babies he can stay home with them and be a stay at home daddy (he has so much more patience than me anyway). we'll be so happy with way less college loans to pay off than everyone else.... i feel so much better about life...thank God for the occassional dizziness due to alcohol. ooooooh man.
wow. i was so stupid tonight. it was so much fun....all i did was laugh at everything and everyone and call christine all sillylike. such a good time. i love aaron's buddies. they're so much fun. i can't wait for the wedding this weekend. what a crazy summer. can't believe it's almost over.......
sooo...while i was laying in bed still drunk and dizzy and all hopped up on caffiene i did some thinking...i came to this realization tonight that it really doesn't matter to me as much as i thought it did that aaron isn't going to school. cause if he's really just not cut out for it than why should i push him to do something he really just can't. i guess it's really only an icing on the cake kind of thing, like maybe i think he'd look better to my family and all my friends that think a college education is the only way to get by in life otherwise you're a loser if you don't. but i realized tonight it doesn't matter. it doesn't mean he has no drive in life, he just has different goals and different ways of approaching them. i love aaron, all of him. i don't not love a part of him that doesn't want to go to school. i love every part of him. and i want to always be with him. the facts go like this: i'm going to be a teacher... my yearly income will be around 45,000 starting, plus i know by then i'll be earning a bare minimum of 12,000 a year doing mary kay, and that's only doing 2 good parties a week. if he's working part time and pplaying music on the side, we'll be totally well off. and we can have a little bitty farm and when we have babies he can stay home with them and be a stay at home daddy (he has so much more patience than me anyway). we'll be so happy with way less college loans to pay off than everyone else.... i feel so much better about life...thank God for the occassional dizziness due to alcohol. ooooooh man.
wow. i was so stupid tonight. it was so much fun....all i did was laugh at everything and everyone and call christine all sillylike. such a good time. i love aaron's buddies. they're so much fun. i can't wait for the wedding this weekend. what a crazy summer. can't believe it's almost over.......