NIKOLAS KAEDIN DANIELS
HE'S HERE.. HE'S HERE... ITS ABOUT TIME huh!?!!... incase ur all wondering my baby boy is finally here... NIKOLAS KAEDIN DANIELS was born on AUGUST 25, 2005 at 5:34am weighing 8.0ibs and 21.25inches long..
it was a pretty miserable night.. well it all sort of started on the 22nd when i went into the hospital cause i was leaking some fluids.. soo to make sure evrything was fine i go up to the OB they check everything out hooked me up to a monitor.. without feeling nothing i was contracting about every 5 min and only dialated at 1. The nurse said i wasnt leaking any amniotic fluid soo i went home that night, eventually came back to the OB the next day with blood all over.. rushed to the hospital hooked me back up still contracting but my dialation went to a 4, didnt feel the need to even be at the hospital cause nothing was goin on and i didnt feel the wait to sit in those uncomfortable beds and they said it was fine to leave cause i guess the bleeding was normal it was just cause my GINA was getting ready... so i left that day knowing i would be back sooner or later. then i think the next day i went to work to help out i felt my contractions a little more tense but managed to work through them cause the nurses said "WHEN U CANT TALK AND IT HURTS THAT BAD .. COME IN" soo i didnt think ne thing of it cause i was still moving and still talking but i just had that gut feeling that something was up.. sooo ended up going back to the OB and sitting there for hours Missed a special DINNER on the PRINCESS SHIP with my workers.. pretty bummed about that...while sitting there all they could give me was a sleeping pill to go home with and see from there.. they were gonna induse me or what not.. but i guess someone else was in line before me.. so by then i was just tict I wanted this baby out of me... so the night of the 24th i had this sleeping pill, and looking forward to sleep, so i was pretty stoked about that, doze off then at about 12am on the 25th i woke up feeling pain still managing to talk yadda yadda still trying to sleep through the contractions, and getting up and going to the bathroom cause at that point thats the only thing that felt good, this went on tell about 3:30am then i couldnt take it ne more.. i said fUCK THIS IM CALLING THE OB .. they said time ur contractions take a shower and see how u feel.. did all that called back and at that point i was crying caues it hurt... so i had Matt get up take me to the hospital while getting pulled over by a damn COP.. ya pretty weird huh... the cop just said meet me at the hospital.. i said fuck the cop got outta the car and just walked into the emergency room, the cop said this is a good enough reason to let u go so he let Matt go, it would of beeen a prettty big ticket, he was goin about 80. so we rush up to the oB rooms.. whille im standing there as calm as i can watching the nurses take there sweet ol time while im just in pain but being calm at the same time, then they check to see how far iv dialated i was at an 8 and i was like do u have time for an epederal and there like sorry hun ur dialating fast .. sooO i was like fuck shit .. i had no time for a epederal.. then the next min the doctor is having me push every contraction and my god i have never ever pushed so freakin hard in my life... i pushed so hard my face literally had blood vessels it looked like i broke out into a bunch of pimples... and the nurse couldnt keep up with me sooo i just held my own legs and PUSHHHHED.. god! it felt soooo good to push.. to me pushing felt better then the contractions so i was instantly pushing while contracting.. and then the ending came the doctor was like its gonna burn a BIT cause u might rip.. THE WORST OF MY WORRIES was ripping through this whole pregnancy i was worried about ripping.. i mean think about it it sounds worse then it is.. but shit that hurt.. wasnt as bad as i thought it would be.. and hour of being in labor and only pushing 6 times.. id say it was worth it.. defintly one of the scariest experiences iv ever been through knowing i had nothing to releave the pain.... but i knew i could do it.. well i had no choice.... it felt weird cause at one point i closed my eyes and i felt like someone was there with me pushing with me.. and i felt like i was somewhere else... it was really weird.. and i remeber almost passing out pushing soo hard cause i remeber my eyes rolling behind my head and zoneing out.. and then snapping back into pushing... my doctors was really impressed.. i could imagine those people that spend days in labor.. and thinking about that... i would of probably not made it that long.. cause it was hard enough doing it for an hour. I couldnt believe how much blood i lost.. when everything was done i was sitting in a PUDDLE of my own blood so weak... when they handed Nikolas to me i just looked at him and my heart just dropped he isnt what i expected.. hes like the precious thing.. i was soo scared to leave the hospital and bring him out into this crazy world, cause shit is going on and its just scary to bring a inocent child into this hectic world. and i would just cry everytime he cried cause i was just scared to be a mother and wanting to be the best mother... cause the begining of a childs life is so important, and i was just scared to mess up. i still feel that way, but i can defitnly say this baby is my angel... and him comming into this world has changed everything about me, i couldnt ask for nething more.
it was a pretty miserable night.. well it all sort of started on the 22nd when i went into the hospital cause i was leaking some fluids.. soo to make sure evrything was fine i go up to the OB they check everything out hooked me up to a monitor.. without feeling nothing i was contracting about every 5 min and only dialated at 1. The nurse said i wasnt leaking any amniotic fluid soo i went home that night, eventually came back to the OB the next day with blood all over.. rushed to the hospital hooked me back up still contracting but my dialation went to a 4, didnt feel the need to even be at the hospital cause nothing was goin on and i didnt feel the wait to sit in those uncomfortable beds and they said it was fine to leave cause i guess the bleeding was normal it was just cause my GINA was getting ready... so i left that day knowing i would be back sooner or later. then i think the next day i went to work to help out i felt my contractions a little more tense but managed to work through them cause the nurses said "WHEN U CANT TALK AND IT HURTS THAT BAD .. COME IN" soo i didnt think ne thing of it cause i was still moving and still talking but i just had that gut feeling that something was up.. sooo ended up going back to the OB and sitting there for hours Missed a special DINNER on the PRINCESS SHIP with my workers.. pretty bummed about that...while sitting there all they could give me was a sleeping pill to go home with and see from there.. they were gonna induse me or what not.. but i guess someone else was in line before me.. so by then i was just tict I wanted this baby out of me... so the night of the 24th i had this sleeping pill, and looking forward to sleep, so i was pretty stoked about that, doze off then at about 12am on the 25th i woke up feeling pain still managing to talk yadda yadda still trying to sleep through the contractions, and getting up and going to the bathroom cause at that point thats the only thing that felt good, this went on tell about 3:30am then i couldnt take it ne more.. i said fUCK THIS IM CALLING THE OB .. they said time ur contractions take a shower and see how u feel.. did all that called back and at that point i was crying caues it hurt... so i had Matt get up take me to the hospital while getting pulled over by a damn COP.. ya pretty weird huh... the cop just said meet me at the hospital.. i said fuck the cop got outta the car and just walked into the emergency room, the cop said this is a good enough reason to let u go so he let Matt go, it would of beeen a prettty big ticket, he was goin about 80. so we rush up to the oB rooms.. whille im standing there as calm as i can watching the nurses take there sweet ol time while im just in pain but being calm at the same time, then they check to see how far iv dialated i was at an 8 and i was like do u have time for an epederal and there like sorry hun ur dialating fast .. sooO i was like fuck shit .. i had no time for a epederal.. then the next min the doctor is having me push every contraction and my god i have never ever pushed so freakin hard in my life... i pushed so hard my face literally had blood vessels it looked like i broke out into a bunch of pimples... and the nurse couldnt keep up with me sooo i just held my own legs and PUSHHHHED.. god! it felt soooo good to push.. to me pushing felt better then the contractions so i was instantly pushing while contracting.. and then the ending came the doctor was like its gonna burn a BIT cause u might rip.. THE WORST OF MY WORRIES was ripping through this whole pregnancy i was worried about ripping.. i mean think about it it sounds worse then it is.. but shit that hurt.. wasnt as bad as i thought it would be.. and hour of being in labor and only pushing 6 times.. id say it was worth it.. defintly one of the scariest experiences iv ever been through knowing i had nothing to releave the pain.... but i knew i could do it.. well i had no choice.... it felt weird cause at one point i closed my eyes and i felt like someone was there with me pushing with me.. and i felt like i was somewhere else... it was really weird.. and i remeber almost passing out pushing soo hard cause i remeber my eyes rolling behind my head and zoneing out.. and then snapping back into pushing... my doctors was really impressed.. i could imagine those people that spend days in labor.. and thinking about that... i would of probably not made it that long.. cause it was hard enough doing it for an hour. I couldnt believe how much blood i lost.. when everything was done i was sitting in a PUDDLE of my own blood so weak... when they handed Nikolas to me i just looked at him and my heart just dropped he isnt what i expected.. hes like the precious thing.. i was soo scared to leave the hospital and bring him out into this crazy world, cause shit is going on and its just scary to bring a inocent child into this hectic world. and i would just cry everytime he cried cause i was just scared to be a mother and wanting to be the best mother... cause the begining of a childs life is so important, and i was just scared to mess up. i still feel that way, but i can defitnly say this baby is my angel... and him comming into this world has changed everything about me, i couldnt ask for nething more.