I"M BACK!!
uhhh, stronger than ever! you think we sever never we're to clever...
hahah go NKOTB baby. so i'm back guys. been a little down in the dumps since the hurricane but a unreal situation snapped me back into reality and into what is important in life. for those who don't know. i got into a bad car accident last week a day before xmas. it was adam and I and the select few know the whole situation but it just wasnt pretty. at all!! we are both ok but adam's car is totalled which leaves us with one car for three of us because brandons car was broken into and demolished basically.
speaking of brandon. he is coming home today! i'm so fricking excited. he should be home like at any minute but adam was suppose to be home a long time ago and i'm thinking that he went to go pick him up cuz it's been awhile. ohh phone call.ahh it's the bunny. bunny no talking during the real world road rules gauntlet. sorry!! tee hee. ill call you back in like two minutes. but anywhol he should be here soon. i can't wait.
let's see what else. oh for those who arnt around, adam and i broke up. long time ago which led to being upset and frustrated and we live together still, which makes the situation harder. the accident made everything worse but i think we are going to get through everything ok. we are ok. we have fantastic days and then worse days but currently we are fine. joking around and just being us. i just hope that he can find what he is looking for. i love him to death, we didnt fit as a couple, i should have never involved myself with someone 4 years younger than me but at the time i was smitten.. i was totally smitten and just head over heals in lust with the f-cker. jk he's not a f'er. he's having a hard time adjusting to moving here and i'm so fricking difficult to begin with. imaging this guys..... breaking up with a girl right and the girl is just not into the break up. all i did was push him away further because i wanted to talk talk talk about it and it was only us two in the condo and brandon was gone for a month. obnoxious? yea. i couldnt just shut up and let things just happen. we are only going to be roommates, the end. he is trying to work it out with his ex in new orleans, shocker, yet another ex issue. and i'm moving on and back with the person that had my heart to begin with. not sayin that adam was nothing, that totally is not the case. like i said before, i had two great guys and one bad situation. i'm back in chicago, i'm back for a reason. at first i was just hurt and disappointed and my life just was horrible to me. but i need to pick myself back up and just realize i'm here for a reason. i didnt want to come back but i have two people here who have no clue where they are gonna go with their lives. we are all in the same situation. we all didn't want to move away. we all miss our friends, and miss our lives that we had there. granted mine was only a year but i'm sick of crying every day, i'm sick of feeling sorry for myself and digging myself deeper and deeper. it sucks. i just want to have my life back. i have friends who care, and new frienships developing. it could be worse.
so sarah is back guys, i'm sorry that ya'll endured my depression but i'm done. and i know that my friends back in nola read this and miss you guys. i miss you sean and peggy the most. i miss just chilling over at your place with your evil cats. tee hee. i miss our sushi restaurant. i miss our friends at school. we talked about staying there and not leaving. and unfortunetly that wasnt the case. we got thrown out of that situation and it just sucks.. but i'm done feeling shitty.. done...
so day off tomorrow again. so excited! doing nothing. got a doctors appt tomorrow and then hanging out with the tonka. fun times. ok i'm out. they arnt coming home for awhile. dammit. that really sucks. adam is still at work. grrrr and brandons flight got delayed. even suckier.
hahah go NKOTB baby. so i'm back guys. been a little down in the dumps since the hurricane but a unreal situation snapped me back into reality and into what is important in life. for those who don't know. i got into a bad car accident last week a day before xmas. it was adam and I and the select few know the whole situation but it just wasnt pretty. at all!! we are both ok but adam's car is totalled which leaves us with one car for three of us because brandons car was broken into and demolished basically.
speaking of brandon. he is coming home today! i'm so fricking excited. he should be home like at any minute but adam was suppose to be home a long time ago and i'm thinking that he went to go pick him up cuz it's been awhile. ohh phone call.ahh it's the bunny. bunny no talking during the real world road rules gauntlet. sorry!! tee hee. ill call you back in like two minutes. but anywhol he should be here soon. i can't wait.
let's see what else. oh for those who arnt around, adam and i broke up. long time ago which led to being upset and frustrated and we live together still, which makes the situation harder. the accident made everything worse but i think we are going to get through everything ok. we are ok. we have fantastic days and then worse days but currently we are fine. joking around and just being us. i just hope that he can find what he is looking for. i love him to death, we didnt fit as a couple, i should have never involved myself with someone 4 years younger than me but at the time i was smitten.. i was totally smitten and just head over heals in lust with the f-cker. jk he's not a f'er. he's having a hard time adjusting to moving here and i'm so fricking difficult to begin with. imaging this guys..... breaking up with a girl right and the girl is just not into the break up. all i did was push him away further because i wanted to talk talk talk about it and it was only us two in the condo and brandon was gone for a month. obnoxious? yea. i couldnt just shut up and let things just happen. we are only going to be roommates, the end. he is trying to work it out with his ex in new orleans, shocker, yet another ex issue. and i'm moving on and back with the person that had my heart to begin with. not sayin that adam was nothing, that totally is not the case. like i said before, i had two great guys and one bad situation. i'm back in chicago, i'm back for a reason. at first i was just hurt and disappointed and my life just was horrible to me. but i need to pick myself back up and just realize i'm here for a reason. i didnt want to come back but i have two people here who have no clue where they are gonna go with their lives. we are all in the same situation. we all didn't want to move away. we all miss our friends, and miss our lives that we had there. granted mine was only a year but i'm sick of crying every day, i'm sick of feeling sorry for myself and digging myself deeper and deeper. it sucks. i just want to have my life back. i have friends who care, and new frienships developing. it could be worse.
so sarah is back guys, i'm sorry that ya'll endured my depression but i'm done. and i know that my friends back in nola read this and miss you guys. i miss you sean and peggy the most. i miss just chilling over at your place with your evil cats. tee hee. i miss our sushi restaurant. i miss our friends at school. we talked about staying there and not leaving. and unfortunetly that wasnt the case. we got thrown out of that situation and it just sucks.. but i'm done feeling shitty.. done...
so day off tomorrow again. so excited! doing nothing. got a doctors appt tomorrow and then hanging out with the tonka. fun times. ok i'm out. they arnt coming home for awhile. dammit. that really sucks. adam is still at work. grrrr and brandons flight got delayed. even suckier.