~...the cap is twisted, begging to be used...and so are you...~
At skool.
Dont feel very well.
Todays tuesday...me and Leif have been broken up since Sunday night...yeah.
Gawd i love him, but finally just told him that i dont want to be with him, if all we are going to do is totally hurt eachother, that its not worth it to me. honestly...now...nothing is worth it anymore. nothings worth living for, dieing for...nothing is worth looking for, worth loving for...nothing.
i dont know how to handle this. its so hard because i love him, and i do want to be with him...SO bad...i just cant have it be like this. i dont know. i need him to be a part of my life. i dont know how to do this. ehhh fuck.
Well, last week me and vanessa went to goodwill, and i got this little boys superman shirt, with a velcro cape on it, for like $1.99 so i wore it to skool today. its awesome. im a super hero. i make the rules...cuz i got the cape...lol. yeah. Like the new background????...Betti Page is the sex!!!!! i was gonna choose like marilyn manson, or marilyn monroe for a background...but right now im thinking about how bad i wanna be a suicide girl....and Betti Page is SUCH and inspiration!!! <3<3<3
ahhh...swallow, choke, and die.
Oh So Emo...
haha...ehhh...
i HATE high skool...with a passion, just so all of you know!
well, there really isent much more to say...my emotions are pretty blank right now. which is good, because right now, emotionally, i dont wanna feel.
Have.A.Day.
Forever.
<3saraaustin
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Dont feel very well.
Todays tuesday...me and Leif have been broken up since Sunday night...yeah.
Gawd i love him, but finally just told him that i dont want to be with him, if all we are going to do is totally hurt eachother, that its not worth it to me. honestly...now...nothing is worth it anymore. nothings worth living for, dieing for...nothing is worth looking for, worth loving for...nothing.
i dont know how to handle this. its so hard because i love him, and i do want to be with him...SO bad...i just cant have it be like this. i dont know. i need him to be a part of my life. i dont know how to do this. ehhh fuck.
Well, last week me and vanessa went to goodwill, and i got this little boys superman shirt, with a velcro cape on it, for like $1.99 so i wore it to skool today. its awesome. im a super hero. i make the rules...cuz i got the cape...lol. yeah. Like the new background????...Betti Page is the sex!!!!! i was gonna choose like marilyn manson, or marilyn monroe for a background...but right now im thinking about how bad i wanna be a suicide girl....and Betti Page is SUCH and inspiration!!! <3<3<3
ahhh...swallow, choke, and die.
Oh So Emo...
haha...ehhh...
i HATE high skool...with a passion, just so all of you know!
well, there really isent much more to say...my emotions are pretty blank right now. which is good, because right now, emotionally, i dont wanna feel.
Have.A.Day.
Forever.
<3saraaustin
~~~~~~~~~~~~~