i don't know how i'm gonna tell you...
i can't play with you no more.....
fuck. led zeppelin always says it best, i think.
regardless.
i told him. i sent the email that cuts all ties. we haven't spoken in a little over a week, despite my attempts at contact. and i get the distinct feeling he's avoiding me. for no reason other than his own pure childishness and immaturity.
so i've decided that i no longer have room for him in my life. i simply cannot sit here any longer and puzzle over what he's doing and why he's doing it. he treats me like i'm something who only deserves to be recognized and appreciated when the mood strikes him. and i've had enough of that. i'm not going to be the one who's there when he's lonely or feeling down. i'm not going to be his god damn soft place to fall, because he most certainly is not mine.
he's changed. he's become moody, unpredictable, unstable, self-centered, selfish, and hopelessly childish in many ways. in short, he is no longer the man that i fell in love with months ago. i don't know how he managed to morph into whatever it is he has become, but it's ugly and i hate it.
if he comes crawling back, someone remind me of this entry. my resolution is to be firm on this and to not let him back in to my life. i need to stand up for myself. i know i deserve better people in my life.
fuck. led zeppelin always says it best, i think.
regardless.
i told him. i sent the email that cuts all ties. we haven't spoken in a little over a week, despite my attempts at contact. and i get the distinct feeling he's avoiding me. for no reason other than his own pure childishness and immaturity.
so i've decided that i no longer have room for him in my life. i simply cannot sit here any longer and puzzle over what he's doing and why he's doing it. he treats me like i'm something who only deserves to be recognized and appreciated when the mood strikes him. and i've had enough of that. i'm not going to be the one who's there when he's lonely or feeling down. i'm not going to be his god damn soft place to fall, because he most certainly is not mine.
he's changed. he's become moody, unpredictable, unstable, self-centered, selfish, and hopelessly childish in many ways. in short, he is no longer the man that i fell in love with months ago. i don't know how he managed to morph into whatever it is he has become, but it's ugly and i hate it.
if he comes crawling back, someone remind me of this entry. my resolution is to be firm on this and to not let him back in to my life. i need to stand up for myself. i know i deserve better people in my life.