I want someone to know who I am when I die

[sara_saysoi]

I am the girl next door, the sarah plain and tall. The forigner sometimes called the terroist. I am the girl who learned to turn the other cheek and know that life will sucker puch me harder on the other side. The girl who faces the word not her feet when she walks. I like to dress up and look like a hollywood star. Secretely would love to be in the lime light. Needs to hear loud cars and the clouds crash into eachother. Love chemistery especially stochiometry. I am one of the lucky ones who met her soul mate but somehow became part of the many who never ends up with them. I am the fool who was always to scared to say I love you you idiot. I think back to those moments that I regret and then I look up and notice the world is still turning and I am still breathing and just smile. I'm the girl no one will really hear about not one of those who leaves her impression on the wolrd but I hope that when I die someone has more to say than "Just Sara" I like brown paper bag lunches, guys with tattos and loud cars. I lie, cheat, doubt myself and my lovers, have a raging jealousy problem, and am legally blind in one eye. My mother hates who I am but loves me. I have a tattoo I'm wild and crazy and love to fall on my ass. Im the geek people picked on in elementary school the girl tossed into the racks the one who loves to read books and her geek glasses. I have a hard time getting 'him' out of my head- and am utterly and happily in love. I have a passion for mascara and getting lost in my car. I love the warm wind and a pair of arms to keep me warm I love my memories and the feelings I get as each picture passes through my mind. I'm crazy about life and pixie sticks. I'm a pessimist, realist. I like not being part of 'us' and 'them.' I belive there is no black and white-that life is all grey and No Brian I dont think you have to chose becuase I refuse to. I want both, I want everything- I am the girl who knows she will get everything out of life and love every breath, tear, embrace, and exhale.

The point of this, None.
Im Just Sara and can't sleep.
So Hello World.