Imbracing the artist in me
The last few weeks have been crazy in a fantastic way. I finally excepted that I am a artist. I think I was afraid that if I excepted the life of a artist that It would make me further away from my family that it would be harder to talk to them about my life. But it did the opposite. I have found that I get along better with everybody and the ones I don't I released it would never of worked out anyways. I did not really need them. It has been odd to. I have been so immersed in my art and painting that I have not been as healthy. Before it was more important to sleep and eat and watch a move and hang with friends. Know I get up go to school until 3 or 5 go and paint for a few hours and then go home and if I have other projects work on them until around 11pm. which means that I am immersed in my art world for about 11 out of 13 hours a day. One hour is me zoning out in-front of the tv or reading and the other is eating and breaks. I have learned how much respect people have for artist. Most people who art what I want to do and I say I am a artist say " good for you". I always smile at this because as someone who is a artist to the core I do not feel like I have a choice. People are also amazed when I say I have classes that last five hours and my shortest class is two and half hours. They always ask me how I can do it. At this point it is just how it is. I will say five hours of critic is really intense and five hours of painting normally end with a group of use getting a beer. But as intense or crazy it may be I love it.
It is odd to think that after all this work and years of going to school that the job I will get will likely not be in art. Most artist have two jobs and the art job is not the high paying one. Most people go to school to get better at what they will get a job in. Artist go to school to become better artist which is better people and really about embracing yourself.
Oh and if anyone ever gets the chance to see a James Turrell piece they should he is fucking amazing. I hear him talk last week. My new favorite artist.
It is odd to think that after all this work and years of going to school that the job I will get will likely not be in art. Most artist have two jobs and the art job is not the high paying one. Most people go to school to get better at what they will get a job in. Artist go to school to become better artist which is better people and really about embracing yourself.
Oh and if anyone ever gets the chance to see a James Turrell piece they should he is fucking amazing. I hear him talk last week. My new favorite artist.