Attached to people
I hate that I am someone who gets attached to people. We all do but the people I let into my life I let them in like they are always going to be there for me. I was talking to my roommate about the apartment. I was telling him that if he moved out that I think I would just move. I just found someone to fill the other room and I spent more money then I was wanting to for covering rent and I don't really want to have to go through that again. He did not really like that. I guess that he feels that I am to attached to him and that I would re-think my whole life if he was to go somewhere else. I just laughs and said is that what you think. He said yes. I told him that it would suck and I would be said but my life would not change because of him not being around, well where I live may but that is all. I think there was part of me that was hurt by the fact that he thought that about me. I think there are emotions that he is not facing and he is trying to make the whole leaving thing seem easier then it really is for him. I tried for like a week to think about leaving and looking into that but when it came down to it I don't want to I am here. I think of this place as home and I have accepted that by staying hear that there are going to be people that will move on to other places but you can get that anywhere. I have been thinking about getting a house that needs some work. I want something more permanent and I don't want to have to deal with landlords to do stuff or to get stuff done. Just be able to do what I want to the place I am living in. I don't want to be depending on other people to be living in the place I am.