things havent been too good...*
well things havent been too great lately... monday i went to school, then my mom picked me & steve up - we brought steve home, then i went to my ortho appt. which sucked as usual... then i went to work, and after work i just came home, did my homework, and watched a movie with jae & ry - nothing interesting at all, pretty boring! so then tuesday school sucked because we had to go to the library for our ceramics report and i got the worst topic ever! kill me now.. tlatilco - WTF is that? and i also had to start writing an essay for english on the loss of innocence... figures - soo anyways, i had work after school and that was a nightmare from hell because the kids didnt listen at all! i was soo relieved to get out of there, but when i got in the car i probly wished i could have stayed longer... i could tell my mom was pissed but i had no idea why - i soon found out that mr OB had called her and told her everything that had happened a few nights ago... idk why im involved when i had nothing to do with it, but supposably i kept calling mauras house on sunday and wouldnt stop... too bad i didnt call the house at all! lol - soo yeah, i got bitched at by my mom the whole way home, "if i was a good friend, i would have done the right thing and told their parents they were in danger" fuck that mom! - friends dont turn eachother in no matter what... also, i am no longer allowed to have sleepovers anymore because we can not be trusted together - my mom says im allowed to see maura & danielle in school and thats it!!! r u serious? thats like taking away 2 of my best friends, and my friends are EvErYtHiNg to me! screw that... they wont keep us apart =) -- so by the time we pulled up in my driveway, tears were flowing down my cheeks - when i took a step out of the car, i slipped in the snow and fell on my ass... by that point i was really pissed so i got up and slammed the car door shut, only to fall right on my ass again! soo i had finally stood up right and then struggled to get up, i fell the whole way to the door and my mom was laughing at me so i threw snow in her face and ran in the house... i was soo frustrated that all i could do was cry - i went straight to my room, crawled in my bed, and cried ALL night long! i only got up a few times to go online real quick and pee!... i cried til about 8, and i had gotten home at around 6 so thats like 2 hrs of crying, i just couldnt stop... i had gotten to the point where i felt hopeless, not only about the shit with maura & danielle, but just other little things in life - my eyes hurt soo bad, so i got up washed my face and went back to my bed... i cried a little more after that but i eventually fell asleep - i woke up at like 11, brushed my teeth, and set my alarm for the morning! i didnt opened any books or eaten anything all night long... i was hoping for a snowday so i could do my homework, but got a 2hr delay which was good enough i guess - so maura picked me up a little after 9 because she woke up late - school was decent, boring like always tho... i left after 7th period to go for my driving lessons - i saw nick & bub when i was driving too! and thats about the most exciting thing because i get soo bored with my instructor guy! lol, so then i went to work and that was okayy today - i drove the 5 speed home in the rain, and i did good! now im here catching up on things and trying to enjoy my night as much as i can... which wont be much because i have homework =( - oh yeah, and i also found out that maura cant come skiing saturday, so im gona be alone... well not really but maura & danielle were my skiing buddies and now im gona just be with the boys, but im not gona have anyone to come with me to the bathroom and change and shit - its gona suck! i love my maura & barcia but i really wish they would have made a better decision so that all this shit wouldnt have happened... are boyfriends really worth all these consequences? well im going but ill write back another day! ~xOxO~
<3.saralynnelle*