I'm proud of myself...

[sara_fabulous]

I wrote a poem today. I use to love to write, and I haven't in probably a couple of years. I use to have a poem book and write one whenever there was something on my mind. It was my way to make whatever I was going through into art. As dumb as it sounds I really missed that. I've found myself lately trying to be that girl again, the one I use to know before the drama... before life as a bitter bitch happened. I found myself the other day getting upset over something rediculous and I said "this has got to stop" I mean you can only be mad at the world for so long, and be mad at people in general for so long before you become miserable. I don't want to be miserable and I don't want the people around me to be that way. I mean I know how I feel when someone is like that to me. So I've been practicing being nice, and smiling, and just trying not to be pissed off all of the time. It's actually been working (imagine that), hence the writing. And it clicked... I hold on to everything that has hurt me and I use it against myself as reasons I shouldn't be happy. It took me a long time to realize not everyone is backstabbing and two timing. Thank god for sending me my sunshine when he did. Well enough rambling. I'm off to watch some good ole One Tree Hill =o)

I love you Josh =o)