Update here at hell hole

[sara0821]

Alrighty... i haven't really been able to communicate to many people except my family due to being so busy here. Tonight was it.... graduation.... ive been awaay for 20 days now... and time has gone by so freaking fast!! Basically to sum up whats happeneing to me, On monday morning 95% chance I am going to be on a plane to Germany to work on the Pride of Hawaii. However, I won't be seeing passengers cruising that ship months from now. I will be cleaning and building and putting this ship together. I don't think i have ever been so scared of something in my life. I don't know if im sad, if im excited, if im scared to death. Pretty much emotionless..... As for Joel and Ben neither of them have passports so they are most likely stuck here for a few more weeks.. then who knows where they are going. I hate how everything is so up in the air and I have no clue whats going on. They don't tell you anything untill a day before you leave wherever youre going. I am so scared.... I miss my family... I don't want to stay around here for 3-4 more weeks. I wasn't planning on being away from home for more than 6 months. AHHHHH I just want to scream!!!!!!

I am going to arts and crafts to make myself something neat... maybe another ring or a candle or something....

ya over and out