OH MY FREAKING....
youve got to be joking me... why the HELL do I even try anymore at life? at boys? Seriously i FINALLY found someone after what 10 months of getting over someone whom no idea i was so attached to after the first 3 month of the break up... I finally found another decent boy who made me get that feeling in my stomach, and when I was with him it was like NOTHING else mattered in the world. As if "time was frozen". He liked me JUST as much, yet is so far away from me and i wanted and planned on going to see him for 2 weeks, STILL WOULD IN A HEART BEAT, but i guess things just weren't meant to be. BOth of our future plans= not being near one another.. so why try to start something when you know it isn't going to work? right? then why is it so HARD!! I told myself a while ago that I have given up on boys.. they are a freaking waste of time and I just seem to ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS get my heart hurt.. and im sick of it. Im sick of crying so many tear drops over boys, im sick of them trying to be my friend when they probably don't even care from things they were saying before, im just sick and tired of all of it! Tears are just pouring out of my eyes in saddness becaue of how badly I just want to be with him and I can't. Anyone ever feel that way? when you want something so badly.. you think its so perfect for you.. and for some reason it doesn't work out. please Lord make this feeling go away again... I know it can.. im so much stronger now from how much ive gone through with relationships. It will fade hopefully real soon.
not soon enough :(
not soon enough :(