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Thursday: Had a work meeting then went to Josh's viewing. It was horrible.. I walked into the building and I just started crying.. I couldn't even walk into the room with him in it. Finally after pulling myself together I walked in passed the casket without even looking in it.. I just couldn't.. I don't know why. I sat down in a chair that was facing the caset.. I kind of saw his face.. he looked like a painted on manican. I thought that if I stared hard enough he would start breathing again... didn't work. Melissa was a wreck.. I just felt so awful for her.. I can't even imagine what shes going through. After the viewing.. shelby and I went to party city to get cups for friday night.. they are pretty neat looking. I got pink and she bought purple. Then I went and picked up my mom from home to take her to the hospital. Her friend marie was in for not taking her medication. I guess she told someone she was going to hang herself and didn't want to live any longer. She was so tweaked out when we saw her.. she was telling me about a muslim lady that had came into her hospital room with two little kids on her back. The lady just stood there while marie asked her what she wanted and she didn't respond. Marie offered something to the lady and she just put her feet on it. When marie told the nurse about this and my mom and I .. we were all kinda freaked out.. but realized she was haveing really bad hallusinations. Im really worried for her...
When we left there I picked up jake from his house and we were gunna go make jello shots but my mom freaked out and was being a nazi so we would just make them the next day. We left my house and went over to JID (Jeff Ian and Dan's)house watched robin williams live comedy show and played nintendo. Then jay, jake, dan, me and casey all walekd to plad pantry they all got beer and sparks and I got a rock star. oh boy.. probably NOT a good idea.. haha.. I was up till 5:30ish that night. After we left their house jake casey and I went back to jakes and watched a movie. Casey was leaving and Jake and I were gunna build a fort and sleep on his floor but I didn't have my contact case with me.. so I ended up getting a ride home w/casey. When I got home jake called and decided to build a fort all by his lonesome and tried making me jelous cuz I wasn't there.. and it was the coolest fort ever! haha what a DORK FACE!
Friday: Shelby and I went to josh's funeral and there were so many people from middle school I knew that I haven't seen in such a long time. It was just so sad that we all had to reunite on such a bad occasion. After that we came home got ready and went over to the JID house... I drank way to much... I had jello shots, and shelby and I shared a half gallon of bacardi rum long island iced tea between the two of us.. luckily I did not puke.. but when I came home I drank as many glasses of water as I possibly could before I passed out. I had like 4-5 tall glasses, took an ibprofin and went to bed.
Saturday: I got a call at 9 am from jake calling to tell me he got home... I was like omg.. 9 in the morning and hes coming home.. lol hes nuts! I guess him and his brother jon got in a fist fight and they busted the wall.. and he said he scared all the little 15 yr old girls. I dunno he was telling me all these stories, but i was half asleep still drunk and very un aware of what he was saying. After I got off the phone I fell back asleep then woke up at 9:45 from Sam calling me to drop of the concert tickets.. boy did I look stupid.. hair all messed up.. miss matched pj's.. just looking awfull.. haha it was kinda embarassing. so i got the tickets, came and crawled (literally) back into bed. then my alarm was going off at 10 and my clock radio alarm was going off at 10:15.. its like all these alarms were gonig off that I don't even remember setting. So i finally got up.. got ready for work.. feeling so crapy. Went to work till 5ish felt sick all day. Came home got ready for the concert, then went to the dear whoever show... see pictures above :) it was alot of fun! I really want to go to the show on the 17th but Im pretty sure im gogni to shasta so I don't know if I will be able to go.. Emery is so efing great though.. so eh we'll see what happens.
TOnight We had a girls night after the show we went to shelbys then we all ate at apple bees. Cory, shelby, ashley, me, marika, cassynia, and sara lee. After we ate we went to some party by putnum and it was so gay! But my friend melissa was trashed off her ass... she asked me to take her home and I said I would. So I was inside and the next thing I knew it her brother comes in telling me she left with kristen. OMG I was so pissed off .. I called her and she said she was in her driveway safe and sound.. she freaking got lucky or soemthing.. I dont' know how the heck she drove. WE came back to shelbys and sat and talked.. and I got really tired and got up like I wanted to go.. cuz I didnt' drive. All the girls were sitting on the bed talkign about their boyfriends and the freaking sex lives.. and it was just depressign and I didn't want to listen to it anymore. SO i waved to everyone and walked out the door. I walked all the way to wichita school and saw sam drive by so I called him and he is so wonderfull he came back and took me home. So im home safe and sound.. and my bed is calling out my name so im gunan go join my cat and sleep. gotta work int he morn :(
When we left there I picked up jake from his house and we were gunna go make jello shots but my mom freaked out and was being a nazi so we would just make them the next day. We left my house and went over to JID (Jeff Ian and Dan's)house watched robin williams live comedy show and played nintendo. Then jay, jake, dan, me and casey all walekd to plad pantry they all got beer and sparks and I got a rock star. oh boy.. probably NOT a good idea.. haha.. I was up till 5:30ish that night. After we left their house jake casey and I went back to jakes and watched a movie. Casey was leaving and Jake and I were gunna build a fort and sleep on his floor but I didn't have my contact case with me.. so I ended up getting a ride home w/casey. When I got home jake called and decided to build a fort all by his lonesome and tried making me jelous cuz I wasn't there.. and it was the coolest fort ever! haha what a DORK FACE!
Friday: Shelby and I went to josh's funeral and there were so many people from middle school I knew that I haven't seen in such a long time. It was just so sad that we all had to reunite on such a bad occasion. After that we came home got ready and went over to the JID house... I drank way to much... I had jello shots, and shelby and I shared a half gallon of bacardi rum long island iced tea between the two of us.. luckily I did not puke.. but when I came home I drank as many glasses of water as I possibly could before I passed out. I had like 4-5 tall glasses, took an ibprofin and went to bed.
Saturday: I got a call at 9 am from jake calling to tell me he got home... I was like omg.. 9 in the morning and hes coming home.. lol hes nuts! I guess him and his brother jon got in a fist fight and they busted the wall.. and he said he scared all the little 15 yr old girls. I dunno he was telling me all these stories, but i was half asleep still drunk and very un aware of what he was saying. After I got off the phone I fell back asleep then woke up at 9:45 from Sam calling me to drop of the concert tickets.. boy did I look stupid.. hair all messed up.. miss matched pj's.. just looking awfull.. haha it was kinda embarassing. so i got the tickets, came and crawled (literally) back into bed. then my alarm was going off at 10 and my clock radio alarm was going off at 10:15.. its like all these alarms were gonig off that I don't even remember setting. So i finally got up.. got ready for work.. feeling so crapy. Went to work till 5ish felt sick all day. Came home got ready for the concert, then went to the dear whoever show... see pictures above :) it was alot of fun! I really want to go to the show on the 17th but Im pretty sure im gogni to shasta so I don't know if I will be able to go.. Emery is so efing great though.. so eh we'll see what happens.
TOnight We had a girls night after the show we went to shelbys then we all ate at apple bees. Cory, shelby, ashley, me, marika, cassynia, and sara lee. After we ate we went to some party by putnum and it was so gay! But my friend melissa was trashed off her ass... she asked me to take her home and I said I would. So I was inside and the next thing I knew it her brother comes in telling me she left with kristen. OMG I was so pissed off .. I called her and she said she was in her driveway safe and sound.. she freaking got lucky or soemthing.. I dont' know how the heck she drove. WE came back to shelbys and sat and talked.. and I got really tired and got up like I wanted to go.. cuz I didnt' drive. All the girls were sitting on the bed talkign about their boyfriends and the freaking sex lives.. and it was just depressign and I didn't want to listen to it anymore. SO i waved to everyone and walked out the door. I walked all the way to wichita school and saw sam drive by so I called him and he is so wonderfull he came back and took me home. So im home safe and sound.. and my bed is calling out my name so im gunan go join my cat and sleep. gotta work int he morn :(