Phasing out...
I am slowly but surely phasing out of a lot of people's lives. Sure, I spend a lot of time with those I care the most about, but most others I am adamantly ignoring (sort of) and others I am full on erasing out of my life.
Yesterday I went to Nicos' house and Lara was home. I took a look at her red hair and reminded myself that I truly do not like her at all. So I left Jessie and Heidi to talk to her while I waited outside. i am reminded of my times at Landmark Education and my promise to create possibilities to be generous and kind. However, Lara promised once that whenever she had a problem she would talk to me, and ignoring the many pleas for talking on my part, I have finally and utmostly given up on her.
I also gave up on Chris, this dude I dated and later became my friend.
I sorta gave up on John, who's obsessed with his boyfriend.
Hmm, soon enough I'll be forgetting people's names and wave from the other side of the street thinking, "where the hell do I know them from?"
I hope it doesn't happen with my Small World buddies. I mean, good luck people, it's going to be fun taking over what Heidi and I are leaving. I feel like we both burned out at exactly the same time, needing change and good weather in incrementals. I don't know what that really means, "incrementals" I think I mean something else but my mind's somewhere else.
I can't wait to leave and I am also very sad and nervous. Well not nervous, and not sad, more like dreading saying good bye. Tell you what though, I promise I won't be sad if you promise not to steal my girlfriend...
Yesterday I went to Nicos' house and Lara was home. I took a look at her red hair and reminded myself that I truly do not like her at all. So I left Jessie and Heidi to talk to her while I waited outside. i am reminded of my times at Landmark Education and my promise to create possibilities to be generous and kind. However, Lara promised once that whenever she had a problem she would talk to me, and ignoring the many pleas for talking on my part, I have finally and utmostly given up on her.
I also gave up on Chris, this dude I dated and later became my friend.
I sorta gave up on John, who's obsessed with his boyfriend.
Hmm, soon enough I'll be forgetting people's names and wave from the other side of the street thinking, "where the hell do I know them from?"
I hope it doesn't happen with my Small World buddies. I mean, good luck people, it's going to be fun taking over what Heidi and I are leaving. I feel like we both burned out at exactly the same time, needing change and good weather in incrementals. I don't know what that really means, "incrementals" I think I mean something else but my mind's somewhere else.
I can't wait to leave and I am also very sad and nervous. Well not nervous, and not sad, more like dreading saying good bye. Tell you what though, I promise I won't be sad if you promise not to steal my girlfriend...