more about aj
twe had our "first big fight" last weekend. it was basically about trust issues. he's mad because i was too flirty at a halloween party and i'm mad because i'm just having trouble with his ex (who by the way is pregnant again by a different boy than her first child). it's taken a little over a week but i feel we've gotten past it and are now closer than ever.
these are some of our text messages:
me: i'd do anything to have you to myself. don't get me wrong...what i mean to say is that you're amazing but you're not all there.
him: not all there?
me: for/with me. i know your not with her and won't be again but you're still stuck on it. you guys are just too close.
him: you're stuck on it and if you would give me some time you will have me to yourself. not everything happens over night. some things take time.
me: i know but sometimes its hard. thanks for all the reassurance though, it means a lot. and please just let me know whats going on. i don't always want to hear it but honesty is best. and also just know that most of this is new to me. i knew you guys talked but i was under the impression that it was just small talk.
him. it was until she told me she's having another kid and is now freaking out.
me: ok. but it sucks for me to see the effect that news has on you.
him: i don't feel i've been effected. is it so bad to give someone advice once in a while to keep them from going insane.
me: i guess we'll just see where it goes.
him: i guess so.
(i didn't say anything)
him: we both are having trouble trusting each other. we're focused on the negatives and they're crushing our hearts.
me: yes, you are completely right there. and i just want to make things right because i want you so bad.
him: that's good because your the only person i want to be with. and the only person i am with.
me: so we got that going for us. i believe that whatever is meant to be will work out. things happen for a reason.
him: i believe things happen for a reason too. i believe deanne getting pregnant again proves i made a good choice leaving her and that i'm not supposed to be with her. ever.
me: i can just hope that your ok with it and will eventually be ready to let go of that part of your life. but really, goodnight!
later on i compared her to my friend jay. aj and jay grew up together and we both knew jay long before we met. a while ago aj got upset that jay and i were such close friends because it's not a big secret that jay has wanted to be with me since high school. also, when jay found out that aj and i were together he essentially tried to break us up by telling me bad things about aj. nothing ever happened with jay and i but aj said that i am keeping jay on a string, not letting him close but not completely letting him go. i told him that he was doing the same thing with deanne.
i know its wrong but sometimes i look through aj's phone. since that conversation he has hardly talked to her. the only times i saw in his phone were the times he told me about.
i have never caught aj in a lie, big or small.
again, i'll write more about us later.
these are some of our text messages:
me: i'd do anything to have you to myself. don't get me wrong...what i mean to say is that you're amazing but you're not all there.
him: not all there?
me: for/with me. i know your not with her and won't be again but you're still stuck on it. you guys are just too close.
him: you're stuck on it and if you would give me some time you will have me to yourself. not everything happens over night. some things take time.
me: i know but sometimes its hard. thanks for all the reassurance though, it means a lot. and please just let me know whats going on. i don't always want to hear it but honesty is best. and also just know that most of this is new to me. i knew you guys talked but i was under the impression that it was just small talk.
him. it was until she told me she's having another kid and is now freaking out.
me: ok. but it sucks for me to see the effect that news has on you.
him: i don't feel i've been effected. is it so bad to give someone advice once in a while to keep them from going insane.
me: i guess we'll just see where it goes.
him: i guess so.
(i didn't say anything)
him: we both are having trouble trusting each other. we're focused on the negatives and they're crushing our hearts.
me: yes, you are completely right there. and i just want to make things right because i want you so bad.
him: that's good because your the only person i want to be with. and the only person i am with.
me: so we got that going for us. i believe that whatever is meant to be will work out. things happen for a reason.
him: i believe things happen for a reason too. i believe deanne getting pregnant again proves i made a good choice leaving her and that i'm not supposed to be with her. ever.
me: i can just hope that your ok with it and will eventually be ready to let go of that part of your life. but really, goodnight!
later on i compared her to my friend jay. aj and jay grew up together and we both knew jay long before we met. a while ago aj got upset that jay and i were such close friends because it's not a big secret that jay has wanted to be with me since high school. also, when jay found out that aj and i were together he essentially tried to break us up by telling me bad things about aj. nothing ever happened with jay and i but aj said that i am keeping jay on a string, not letting him close but not completely letting him go. i told him that he was doing the same thing with deanne.
i know its wrong but sometimes i look through aj's phone. since that conversation he has hardly talked to her. the only times i saw in his phone were the times he told me about.
i have never caught aj in a lie, big or small.
again, i'll write more about us later.