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i think today was the first time i've ever really considered my body as it relates to someone elses. and about anorexia and my sexuality.
so strange that i would have stumbled upon this community today.
i was walking downtown and glanced down at my protruding hip bones and thought to myself 'i wouldn't have sex with that' i mean, it looks painful.
several ex-lovers have made comments at my disappearing body. but at that point i was too far in to think about it. too consumed in the disorder to think about other people's relationship with my body.
i think today was one of the healthiest moments i've had since i entered recovery. because i DO want to have a body that is alive and sexual. not a cactus-like body that pushes people away.
::waves hello::
i'm erin.
i'm bisexual.
i've been in recovery from anorexia for 4 years. i've suffered for 11-12 years.
i hope that this community will be a place i can explore this issue more. i want to learn to be comfortable with my body. comfortable enough to share it with someone again.
so strange that i would have stumbled upon this community today.
i was walking downtown and glanced down at my protruding hip bones and thought to myself 'i wouldn't have sex with that' i mean, it looks painful.
several ex-lovers have made comments at my disappearing body. but at that point i was too far in to think about it. too consumed in the disorder to think about other people's relationship with my body.
i think today was one of the healthiest moments i've had since i entered recovery. because i DO want to have a body that is alive and sexual. not a cactus-like body that pushes people away.
::waves hello::
i'm erin.
i'm bisexual.
i've been in recovery from anorexia for 4 years. i've suffered for 11-12 years.
i hope that this community will be a place i can explore this issue more. i want to learn to be comfortable with my body. comfortable enough to share it with someone again.