Rugby
Ok, so last night was the first time at rugby that we got to tackle, and ohhh the fun we had. Basically rugby is a dykes best friend. it's the only sport that lets you grab other girls asses and chotch's as part of the game. it's great. i throughly enjoy it. so i highly recommend it... if you kiss girls. and even if you don't, you can take out your aggresion on people without getting in trouble, and it's really fun. i already have a nickname...weither that's a good or bad thing is still to be determined, but they called me rhino. i think because whenever someone was trying to tackle me i always lowers my shoulders and just plowed through...even the coach didn't get me down, not to mention the fact that i played in my socks...cause ruthie forgot her shoes, so i let her use mine, and i went without anything. it was really fun though, i'd have to say that i reminded my self of my sister cause i fell so much, but it's ok. so that went well. the whole thing with annie sucks though. fyi. we broke up about a week ago, and she's seeing someone from roosevelt...which will remain anonomus. it hurts a lot, but i want annie to be happie. she said she still loves me but i did something which made fall out of love with me. i know what it is...but it still hurts, if not more because i caused it. she wants to go to prom with me, and use it as a coming out to her parents type thing, which i'm scared about. her mother isn't the nicest person, and can be very, very mean...i think i've mentioned her before. lol. but anyways it's hard to be around annie or her new "friend" cause i just want to grab her and kiss her, but i can't. then there are times where she kisses me, and that makes things even harder, because she knows i want her...but i can't have her right now. then i think to myself, maybe this is just a sign to start over with someone else, but i don't want to. emily and sara keep telling me that you first love is the hardest, and i couldn't agree more. i just don't want to let go, and have this be something i'll regret forever. who knows? besides that, she's going to texas for spring break...but i think i'm just gonna go meet some new people, and hang out with my hommies; i mean what else could someone with no money do? but to everyone else going somewhere, have fun where ever you go. mk. ttyl.