Sep 12, 2006 18:29
it seems as those God Himself has posted comments on my last two posts. while normally this would not be something i would reference, it comes at a slightly ironic time. the reasoning behind this is that i've been quasi-dumped using the religious excuse. i say quasi because we were never really dating, just hanging out, but i was informed that we would never date. now, i remember experiencing this from the sidelines in high school. i remember hearing phrase like "he felt like he was spening too much time with me and not enough with God" and "she thinks maybe God has someone else in mind for her." at the time, these sentiments merely puzzled me, and why shouldn't they have, i didn't go to church, i wasn't active in the FCA, i was mostly aloof of these things. they were merely there. now, 6 years later, 3 serious relationships later, a handful of flings and dating experiences later, i get to see it. the difference is, now it makes me angry. for a long time religion in most contexts merely made me chuckle. "Jesus walked on water? did he pull a rabbit out of His hat when he did it?" i fully expect certain people who read my journal to be offended, and i don't mind that, because frankly i'm offended right now. what you might think is that i have no room to be offended. i don't believe in God and Jesus, i don't think that living a life of good will get you into heaven. i certainly don't believe that praying for someone will cure their ailments. people have been praying for 2000 years, and in that 2000 years, medical science has made leaps and bounds. why is it that now we're saving more lives? did the prayer change? did prayer become more effective? it's just like in medicine, prayer was the placebo.
anyway, i've veered. i was told on monday that this girl and i would never date, because i'm not a Christian. i wouldn't encourage her walk with Christ. i wouldn't make her a better Christian. never mind that i wouldn't do the opposite. there's no way in hell i would make her a worse person, or take her away from her religion. i wouldn't beat her, i wouldn't treat her any differently because i didn't believe in God. when i told my friend Gabriel that she wouldn't date me because i wasn't a Christian, he replied "yea, it's kinda one of our rules." Christianity has a lot of rules that bind people, that keep them from doing certain things. You can't work on Sunday, you can't have sex before marriage, you can't date someone who doesn't believe what you believe.
i used to just chuckle about religion you see, it was something to joke about. now it pisses me off.