faintly amused.

[sapphiryx]

this is koped right off from erzi and laogong. lol :D so fun -predicts too that this will take approximately one hour and by then there wont be any time for langarts sia haha-

1. list 10 things you want to say to 10 people but know you never will
2. don't say who they are
3. never discuss it again

1. i've known you practically since we were born (15 years already.) and you've been more than great. i can still laugh at all the random stuff we told each other years back. now i've moved, and our communication has gone down like alot, but our friendship remains pretty much the same, even if we see each other a pathetic number of times per year. i hope one of these days, we'll get past these awful timetables and meet up sometime.
2. you have this amazing reaction to many things that happen all around you. plus you have a terribly good character, and i must say, i liked you right from the start. of course, sometimes i think we've got this same thing about us, we dont really speak what we feel all the time, like during obs. let's get honest, given a bit of time and space. nevertheless you're awful fun to be around. will always <3 you!
3. you are amazing! i love the way you can just bubble away non stop, telling everything from school life to latest worries, thoughts, etc. i dont know how we can talk half an hour non stop, you doing most of it. at the same time, i think you ought to slow down a bit sometimes - you can get so unbelievably hyper! otherwise you are also in turn a pretty good listener. nevermind that you're two years my junior, you're still so spirited, admirable... <3 cant wait to play badminton with you soon! and taking random walks to the botanics! :D
   
4. you're fantastic at comforting people the way you do, like a few times you did me. your natural way of going about stuff keeps me up alot sometimes, which also means you're a great inspiration to me, and something of an elder sister, which of course i dont actually have :D only thing is sometimes you mustnt push yourself too hard, cos its quite worrying, from my point of view. also times, i feel you act differently in front of a certain person, but i cant be too sure.
5. i'm sad for you, that you've wasted away your high school years, and now landed up somewhere you never actually wanted to be. i think you actually have alot of potential to be everything you want, and i know if you would just kick the habit you've got right now, i'm sure you'll do much better. i've seen the way your parents worry about you all the time. on the other hand, you're great company, even if i've met you just a few times, but each time you're always so lively, always telling me good stuff which is really enriching. i also love the way you pull off tricks on me all the time, you're really good at making me laugh, even if you dont know that just yet.
6. you're really one of a kind. sometimes, i just feel freaked out around you, sometimes really comfortable. i dunno, its just something about you, i suppose. however, sometimes i feel that you're weirdly secure and insecure at the same time, for some strange reason. and the way you keep flitting around, its quite confusing. just relax, and maybe you'll find yourself right where you are.
7. this i'll really never bring myself to say, but since things are so smoooth now, muchly more than two years ago, i'll let it be for now. still i'm sorry for all that unnecessary fuss and the distractions that came with it. it was just a caper along the wrong track. and honestly, i'd never meant for you to get involved, and the way you found out was really unexpected yet so real at the same time. however i hope we can just forget the whatevers and just... move on, like now.
8. i laugh. at all the fistfights we had in primary school, and now you're so terribly far away, i can only say i miss you. i hope you'll come back soon, and when you finally do, it'll be much closer than you've ever been. LOVE!
9. probably the only thing is i wish i could get to know you better. you could be so prim at first, but you melted eventually, and now we're positively great. then you had to move to new zealand. well, i wish you'd come back more. you're so talented. build up more on it, and dont forget, there's nothing wrong with asking for help sometimes from those people around you back in nz.
10. time does fly! it's like your third year, and you're a source of just about everything: joy, love, great fun, game partner, sorrow (yes), arguments that dont make sense but show a bit more about yourself each time, irritation (sometimes, but good that you try to keep your temper), etc. remember: dont brood on anything, especially not him, since he's so darn useless anyway just forget about him and move on. dont hide from your family either. tell them, dont run away like the way you said you did. <3