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[sapphiresaline]

The night that I posted about last ended up being a lot worse than I expected it to be. I haven't had a night like that in a very long time. I feel so far removed from it now even though I still bear evidence of it. I can't imagine doing what I did or writing the entry I wrote in my paper journal. I barely even remember thinking those thoughts. I truly think it was another PMDD flare-up. That hasn't happened in YEARS, since I started the birth control I'm still on. I will give it another month and if this happens again, I will let my doc know. I have an appointment in early November anyway. I hope I don't have to go in earlier than that. (Basically, I just hope nothing like the other night happens between now and then or ever again.)

I feel like my normal self today. Most of yesterday, I felt pretty much normal. A relief, to say the least.

I love Halloween and this time of year. :D