050. Lost
Today was another hot stuffy day. Today was a day full of complaints and schedules. Heechul had just recovered from his surgery a few weeks ago. And he’s even driving again. The gang in China came back to get ready for their concert in Thailand in a couple days so everyone was busy practicing.
Heechul doubted himself. He had just gotten over his surgery and now he’s starting to practice dancing with the other members but since his leg shouldn’t be exerted he was having trouble dancing with the rest of the members
Heechul felt useless. He felt like he didn’t deserve anything seeing as how he can’t be helpful during this time of need.
“I’m going to get some fresh air.” Heechul said as he started walking out of the dance studio.
“Come back soon.” Leeteuk said, “We have to practice this to make it perfect when we have our concert in Thailand.”
“Okay.” Heechul said as closed the door behind him but he was surprised when he heard it open again.
“I‘ll go with him.” He heard someone talk behind him as the door swung shut for the second time.
“You don’t have to, Kyuhyun-ah.” Heechul said turning around to face the younger member.
“I want to though.”
“Alright then,” Heechul said turning around to walk out of the building.
Kyuhyun followed Heechul from behind without saying anything.
Once they were outside Heechul looked up at the sky. It was pretty early in the morning around three or four in the morning. They were all practicing so hard to make everything perfect.
A few minutes passed by in silence, “Hyung…”
Heechul was brought out of his thoughts and faced the younger man, “Huh?”
“Are you feeling alright?” Kyuhyun asked with a worried look on his face.
“I’m fine.” Heechul said with a little smile.
“I don’t think you’re fine.” Kyuhyun said, “I think that you might be feeling a little lost right now.”
“What?” Heechul asked looking a little puzzled at Kyuhyun, “What are you talking about.”
“You feel that you aren’t helping the team at all right? You feel like you’re useless, am I right?”
“What-? How-?” Heechul said struggling with words. What Kyuhyun had said was exactly what he felt like. He felt useless.
“I’ve been in that position before.” Kyuhyun said, “When I got out of the hospital and we started promoting Don’t Don. I couldn’t dance with all of you. I felt useless and a little lost with regards to feelings, and work. I felt like I couldn’t do anything to support you guys.”
“But you were hurting then. We didn’t feel that you’re useless. Without you we couldn’t have been able to release that album. That’s why we delayed the release and we were so happy that you were performing with us for the first time in a long time.” Heechul said to the younger. It’s true he never felt that Kyuhyun was a burden when he wasn’t doing activities with the whole group.
“Then how is your position right now any different?” Kyuhyun asked, “We don’t feel that you’re a bother. We’re just glad you’re better now. We don’t know what we’d do if you were still hurt.”
“But…” Heechul said as he turned his head toward the ground. Kyuhyun was right. His position was just like Kyuhyun a few months back.
“No buts.” Kyuhyun said with a smile, “Come on hyung we should go back inside the studio. I’m sure the others must be wondering where we are.”
Heechul nodded and started up the steps.
“Oh wait hyung,” Kyuhyun called, “A while ago back in China bought this for you.”
Out of his pocket Kyuhyun pulled out a necklace. The necklace was made with a red ribbon and the pendent was in the shape of the first character of his name in Chinese.
“When I was passing by the shop I saw this some pendants that had name characters as a pendant so I had one specially made for you and bought the ribbon as well.”
“Kyuhyun-ah… It’s so pretty.” Heechul smiled warmly and gave him a hug.
“Hyung happy birthday,” Kyuhyun smiled returning the hug, “Come on lets go back inside.”
“Kyuhyun-ah… Thank you.” Heechul said softly as he watched Kyuhyun walk back inside. He put on the necklace he was happy that Kyuhyun thought of him and he could tell just by looking at him that he wasn’t feeling too good. But that’s what friendship means knowing that one feels upset, mad, or happy without having to say anything.
(Happy Birthday Heenim~ I love you! Keep on fighting. Stay strong. You’re not too old yet. You still have a lot of time in the future so do you best. Work hard. Just know that what ever happens there are people out there who will always support you no matter what. Heenim fighting<333)
Heechul doubted himself. He had just gotten over his surgery and now he’s starting to practice dancing with the other members but since his leg shouldn’t be exerted he was having trouble dancing with the rest of the members
Heechul felt useless. He felt like he didn’t deserve anything seeing as how he can’t be helpful during this time of need.
“I’m going to get some fresh air.” Heechul said as he started walking out of the dance studio.
“Come back soon.” Leeteuk said, “We have to practice this to make it perfect when we have our concert in Thailand.”
“Okay.” Heechul said as closed the door behind him but he was surprised when he heard it open again.
“I‘ll go with him.” He heard someone talk behind him as the door swung shut for the second time.
“You don’t have to, Kyuhyun-ah.” Heechul said turning around to face the younger member.
“I want to though.”
“Alright then,” Heechul said turning around to walk out of the building.
Kyuhyun followed Heechul from behind without saying anything.
Once they were outside Heechul looked up at the sky. It was pretty early in the morning around three or four in the morning. They were all practicing so hard to make everything perfect.
A few minutes passed by in silence, “Hyung…”
Heechul was brought out of his thoughts and faced the younger man, “Huh?”
“Are you feeling alright?” Kyuhyun asked with a worried look on his face.
“I’m fine.” Heechul said with a little smile.
“I don’t think you’re fine.” Kyuhyun said, “I think that you might be feeling a little lost right now.”
“What?” Heechul asked looking a little puzzled at Kyuhyun, “What are you talking about.”
“You feel that you aren’t helping the team at all right? You feel like you’re useless, am I right?”
“What-? How-?” Heechul said struggling with words. What Kyuhyun had said was exactly what he felt like. He felt useless.
“I’ve been in that position before.” Kyuhyun said, “When I got out of the hospital and we started promoting Don’t Don. I couldn’t dance with all of you. I felt useless and a little lost with regards to feelings, and work. I felt like I couldn’t do anything to support you guys.”
“But you were hurting then. We didn’t feel that you’re useless. Without you we couldn’t have been able to release that album. That’s why we delayed the release and we were so happy that you were performing with us for the first time in a long time.” Heechul said to the younger. It’s true he never felt that Kyuhyun was a burden when he wasn’t doing activities with the whole group.
“Then how is your position right now any different?” Kyuhyun asked, “We don’t feel that you’re a bother. We’re just glad you’re better now. We don’t know what we’d do if you were still hurt.”
“But…” Heechul said as he turned his head toward the ground. Kyuhyun was right. His position was just like Kyuhyun a few months back.
“No buts.” Kyuhyun said with a smile, “Come on hyung we should go back inside the studio. I’m sure the others must be wondering where we are.”
Heechul nodded and started up the steps.
“Oh wait hyung,” Kyuhyun called, “A while ago back in China bought this for you.”
Out of his pocket Kyuhyun pulled out a necklace. The necklace was made with a red ribbon and the pendent was in the shape of the first character of his name in Chinese.
“When I was passing by the shop I saw this some pendants that had name characters as a pendant so I had one specially made for you and bought the ribbon as well.”
“Kyuhyun-ah… It’s so pretty.” Heechul smiled warmly and gave him a hug.
“Hyung happy birthday,” Kyuhyun smiled returning the hug, “Come on lets go back inside.”
“Kyuhyun-ah… Thank you.” Heechul said softly as he watched Kyuhyun walk back inside. He put on the necklace he was happy that Kyuhyun thought of him and he could tell just by looking at him that he wasn’t feeling too good. But that’s what friendship means knowing that one feels upset, mad, or happy without having to say anything.
(Happy Birthday Heenim~ I love you! Keep on fighting. Stay strong. You’re not too old yet. You still have a lot of time in the future so do you best. Work hard. Just know that what ever happens there are people out there who will always support you no matter what. Heenim fighting<333)