023 - Unhappy.
I begin with apologies to Vincent. I did not mean to scare you, if I did so. I also hope that the music stand that was hurled across the room did not break. If so, I will replace it.
It seems as if father's death has troubled me more than I thought. Seeing his bonnet hanging next to mine fills me with nothing but rage. His most sacred belongings seem to take up all the space in the room, though they are little more than carvings and stitchings my sisters and I made as children. His totem stares at me with a forlorn expression that tears into my heart and carves it to pieces. There is much stress otherwise.
I feel as if my anger is building to points that I cannot contain it. Several times over the past few days, I have blanked out and woken up to find myself tearing something apart, throwing something across a room, or ... ... squeezing Wahye's ear... and leaving marks on Zexion's arm. Again, I am more than sorry for that, Langundowi...
I fear this may turn from bad to worse before my "grieving" is over...
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I need it rough. Zexion was nice and soothing, comforting even, but ... I need it. Third floor lobby, ASAP? Blood... may or may not be drawn.
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It seems as if father's death has troubled me more than I thought. Seeing his bonnet hanging next to mine fills me with nothing but rage. His most sacred belongings seem to take up all the space in the room, though they are little more than carvings and stitchings my sisters and I made as children. His totem stares at me with a forlorn expression that tears into my heart and carves it to pieces. There is much stress otherwise.
I feel as if my anger is building to points that I cannot contain it. Several times over the past few days, I have blanked out and woken up to find myself tearing something apart, throwing something across a room, or ... ... squeezing Wahye's ear... and leaving marks on Zexion's arm. Again, I am more than sorry for that, Langundowi...
I fear this may turn from bad to worse before my "grieving" is over...
[Private]
I need it rough. Zexion was nice and soothing, comforting even, but ... I need it. Third floor lobby, ASAP? Blood... may or may not be drawn.
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