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ahh, more complaining! who would have thought?
I hate how I feel so lame sometimes
I really shouldn't be allowed to watch romantic comedies
...especially ones involving the wonderful man named john cusack
I hate that I have an obsession with these movies, because they do nothing but provide me with an extremely false sense of reality and constantly remind me that the stories they portray don't occur in every day life.
maybe I've grown bitter over these last few years, and I'm trying really hard to stay positive
most days are better than this one. and I have nothing to complain about
I'm a lucky girl, and I know that. but sometimes, what you have just isn't enough to keep you happy every moment of every day.
I really can't wait to go back to school and back to doing what I'm good at and back to a church where I feel a real connection with my faith and back to an exercise regime and back to a normal routine to keep me from doing what I'm doing right now... wallowing in self-pity that has no reason behind its existence.
okay, rant over. ignore this if you'd like
"I think your heart grows back bigger, you know, once you get the shit beat out of you. and the universe lets your heart expand that way, cause that's the function of all this pain and heartache that you go through and you gotta go through that to come out to a better place"
I miss you!
edit: I was just reminded, once again, of how lucky I am.