Again
Title: Again.
Genre: Angst? Drama. A happy ending.
Rating: PG
Summary: Kyuhyun made a mistake and Sungmin said a lie.
Author’s Note: This fic is my appreciation to aimaw and ”ohthissucks” because they help me with the ‘Recommendation fic’ ! I hope you both like this>.
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!!Sungmin’s POV!!
“Excuse me, I want to register…” The receptionist looked up at me and smiled weakly. It seems like she’s used to this kind of job and I felt the pity in her eyes. She gave me the form and I received it with a weak heart. I sat down on one of the clinic’s bench and looked thoroughly through the form. Is this what I want? Is this really what I really wanted? Of course. I don’t want to be a burden to Kyuhyun. I love him and if abandoning this child makes him happy then I’m willing to do it. After filling the form slowly, I went back to the receptionist.
“Lee Sungmin-shi?” I nodded. “Are you here alone? I need your husband to sign this form too because this is a legal cooperation. If he’s not here then we can’t do anything about it.”
“I…” I was about to talk when I felt someone’s presence. His presence. “Sorry I’m late.” I looked at him and smiled weakly as I gave him the form and he immediately signed it. My heart shattered into pieces, I knew I’m a burden but I just didn’t know that he really didn’t want this baby. He really didn’t want my baby, our baby. I forced myself to start from crying and breaking down. The receptionist type onto the computer and gave me a paper with a number on it.
“Please go to this room Lee Sungmin-shi.” I stared at the number and slowly nodded. Kyuhyun walked me to the room and we arrived earlier than what I’ve expected. He sat down onto the bench just outside the room and here I am, thinking that maybe he would go with me or say good luck for the least. But I don’t think that’s ever happening. He just wants this baby to go away and fast. I let my tears fall as I walked into the room with hopes and confusion in my mind.
I slowly closed the door and there sat a gorgeous man in his doctor suit. “Come sit down Sungmin-shi…” the doctor invited me to sit onto the chairs in front of him. I read his name tag, Park Jungsu. “Before we start the operation, I would like to survey you so you wouldn’t leave with regrets and tears after doing it.” I nervously nodded.
“Are you willing to do this operation?” Am I willing? Yes? No? I don’t know? But Kyuhyun want this baby to be gone from his sight so he could live happily with his potential wife with no conflicts. And I’m not selfish to let it slide. “Y-yes.”
“Do you want this baby gone from your life? He/She is innocent.” Do I want the baby gone from my life? No. But, Kyuhyun want this baby to be gone from his life. “Y-yes.”
“Will you be happy and not regret everything you did after this?” Happy? No, I would be devastated. Regret? Of course I would, this baby is mine. But, Kyuhyun would be happy and wouldn’t regret anything based on the way he’s acting. “Y-yes.”
The doctor nodded and smiled happily at me. “Congratulations. You’re keeping the baby.” I was shocked. “W-what? N-no. Doctor… please… this is for his sake. His happiness is based on me now. I don’t him to be unhappy.” I desperately explained the situation. “His sake. Not your sake and your baby’s sake. If you’re worried about his sake, I have a plan. The only problem is will you keep the baby?”
!!End Of Sungmin’s POV!!
Sungmin was strolled out from the room; unconscious. Kyuhyun immediately stood up from his seat and approached the latter. He looked so fragile and weak. The doctor came out with a whole plastic of medicine in it. “Congratulations. Your baby’s gone and this is his healing medicine. Please let him take the medicine three times a day.” Kyuhyun nodded and followed to Sungmin’s room.
It’s been two weeks and Sungmin was allowed to go back to his house. Kyuhyun helped him packed his things out. Kyuhyun took hold of the plastic bag of medicine and hand it to Sungmin. “Three times a day, don’t skip them.” Sungmin nodded at the latter and took the medicine; slipping it into his bag. “Thank you…for everything. I’m sorry for being a burden to you. I should’ve done this earlier so you wouldn’t have to go through those hardships. I’ll keep my promise to you. I won’t bother you anymore…” Sungmin’s voice cracked a bit at the end and Kyuhyun noticed it but just ignored the fact that the thug in his heart hurt.
“Goodbye.” And that was the last time they ever talked or see each other.
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It’s been 5 years now. Sungmin looked at his son lovingly. Cho Sandeul, such a cute human being, very different from Cho Kyuhyun but Sandeul’s voice laterally reminds Sungmin of Kyuhyun. Those astonishing voice makes Sungmin heart beat the way it beats for him. The only remainder of Cho Kyuhyun to him.
“Umma…”
“Yes Sandeul ah?”
“Where’s daddy? You said I could meet him after I turn 5.” Sungmin stared at his son sadly. Yes. Lee Sungmin idiotly promised his son that he could meet his dad when he turns five. And now how Sungmin would tell his son that he couldn’t meet his dad because his dad didn’t love him and his dad didn’t love Sungmin too. “Oh baby,” Sungmin started as his son stared at him with a sparkle in his eyes. “You… will meet him when you turn 5. You’re still 4. Your birthday is in two days baby. You’ll meet him then.” There goes another lie. Sungmin sighed as his son slowly fell into a deep sleep. Now he has to think of what to do with the dad thing.
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“See you later baby,” Sungmin kissed his son’s forehead before his son ran inside the school. Sungmin looked at his son greeting his friends happily. Oh how Sungmin wished his son would forget all about last night but Sungmin doubt that. His son is too smart to forget about that. Just as Sungmin was about to went back into the car…
“Min?” Sungmin looked over to the voice that just called him and saw him. Donghae, Kyuhyun’s older brother. “Hae? What are you doing here?” Donghae chuckled and looked down beside him. Sungmin followed his gaze and saw a cute kid with a hip-hop hat on top of him. Sungmin gazed back at Donghae and was about to asked something when Donghae chuckled again. “He’s not mine. He’s…” And that’s when Sungmin understood all of that. It’s Kyuhyun’s son. “Oh…” Donghae nodded and he kissed Kyuhyun’s son cheek. The cute child walked coolly to the school. That kid does remind him of the cold side of Kyuhyun. “He does remind him of Kyuhyun, doesn’t he? That brat.” Donghae tried to bring a happy atmosphere again and Sungmin smiled.
“Why didn’t he bring his son to the school himself?” Sungmin asked. Donghae took a bit of time before he answered an honest question, “He went to mourn your baby.” That answer took Sungmin aback. “My baby?” Donghae nodded and explained about the one Sungmin went to the hospital to get rid of. Sungmin widen his eyes as he thought Kyuhyun would thought of their baby. Sungmin thought Kyuhyun hated him. “Question for you. What are you doing here?” Donghae stared at him and Sungmin sighed. “I lied to Kyuhyun. Our baby didn’t die. I kept him because the doctor didn’t want me to get rid of him. I’m here to take him to school of course. I thought Kyuhyun hated me and didn’t want me to be a burden. That’s why I…lied to him.” Sungmin could see that Donghae was shocked at his statement. “I guess… you could stop the lies now Lee Sungmin and told him the truth because he’s been devastated after you left. He married another woman but that woman died after Baro was born. He mourns your baby everyday. I think he’s going crazy because you left him. Luckily Baro is still there to keep him company.”
Sungmin felt sorry for Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun who didn’t love him would mourn for their baby. Their baby. “Where’s he?” And Donghae told the address of his house and Sungmin quickly went to drive to the house.
Arriving, Sungmin remembered Donghae telling him there’s a spare key under the carpet. Sungmin clutched the key on his palm and slowly opened the lock to the door. Inside was dark. Sungmin closed the door and walked slowly into the house. Kyuhyun’s house was big and clean but inside was so close-in that there’s only little lights coming into the house. It was quite but slowly as he walked more into the house, he could hear someone’s sob from outside the house. Sungmin slowly slide open the sliding door and was led to a beautiful garden with pink roses. He didn’t know pink roses exist. He walked outside the garden and touched the pink roses. So delicate and so fragile. He walked further to the garden and saw a guy kneeling down on the ground in front of a tree full with apples. He was about to approach him when he heard his conversation to himself and stopped.
“I’m sorry Sungmin ah. I love you. I’m in love with you and I ruined your life. Our baby is gone because of me. Please forgive me. I’m kneeling in front of our baby’s favourite fruit. You always eat this fruit when you’re pregnant and I would buy it for you everyday. You look so happy when I buy it for you. But I’m just so egoist to return that smile back and walk away. I don’t know how my hand finds it ways to sign that stupid paper. If I didn’t sign that paper, you and I would be together with our baby. It’s been five years since you’re gone. And I’ve been feeling guilty. I miss you. I miss you Sungmin ah…” Kyuhyun sobbed as he said those words. Sungmin without even knowing, the tears rolled down his cheek. He has been missing Kyuhyun too. And without even knowing, Sungmin ran to him and hugged him tightly from behind. Kyuhyun wiped his tears and looked behind him.
“S-Sungmin?” Kyuhyun stood up and turned around. Sungmin looked at him and Kyuhyun looked back. They both stared at each other. “What are you do--?” Without even finishing Kyuhyun’s sentences, Sungmin kissed him on the lips as his hands wrapped around Kyuhyun’s neck.
“I’ll forgive you if you’ll forgive me Kyu…”
“What are you talking about Min?”
“Our baby… our son… is still alive. I lied to you.” Sungmin slowly stated and was expecting a slap on the face but a tight hug come unexpectedly. “Oh my god. I’m so sorry you have to live a hard life. I’m sorry you have to grow him up on your own. I’m so sorry.” Sungmin couldn’t hold his tears again. It’s been 5 years and those 5 years, Sungmin and Kyuhyun had been living a life full of lies.
“Forgive me?” Kyuhyun stared into Sungmin’s eyes.
“I forgive you… Forgive me too?” Kyuhyun sighed a relief sigh and hugged him again. “You’ve never done anything wrong Min. I love you.” Sungmin smiled. “I love you too.”
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“Meet Kyuhyun appa.” Kyuhyun smiled and ruffled Sandeul’s hair. “Appa!” And Kyuhyun hold onto Sandeul who smiled a very satisfied face. Sungmin’s happy, genuinely happy with his life now. Very happy. “Are you happy Sandeul ah?” Sandeul nodded enthusiastically. “Yes. I meet appa today and I have a boyfriend today too.” Sungmin and Kyuhyun widen their eyes as they looked at each other. Kyuhyun put Sandeul down onto the ground as Sandeul ran to a cute boy and went back to them; bringing the boy with him. “Umma, appa, this is my boyfriend… Cho Baro.” And Kyuhyun and Sungmin thought they would have to lie again about this as they see both their child staring lovingly at each other. “I guess we can let them have a great relationship. We are a great parents after all.”
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THE END^^! Thank your for your help again^^! To @ohthissucks : I don't know how to write a possessive Kyuhyun so I can only write angst for you>.<
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Genre: Angst? Drama. A happy ending.
Rating: PG
Summary: Kyuhyun made a mistake and Sungmin said a lie.
Author’s Note: This fic is my appreciation to aimaw and ”ohthissucks” because they help me with the ‘Recommendation fic’ ! I hope you both like this>.
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!!Sungmin’s POV!!
“Excuse me, I want to register…” The receptionist looked up at me and smiled weakly. It seems like she’s used to this kind of job and I felt the pity in her eyes. She gave me the form and I received it with a weak heart. I sat down on one of the clinic’s bench and looked thoroughly through the form. Is this what I want? Is this really what I really wanted? Of course. I don’t want to be a burden to Kyuhyun. I love him and if abandoning this child makes him happy then I’m willing to do it. After filling the form slowly, I went back to the receptionist.
“Lee Sungmin-shi?” I nodded. “Are you here alone? I need your husband to sign this form too because this is a legal cooperation. If he’s not here then we can’t do anything about it.”
“I…” I was about to talk when I felt someone’s presence. His presence. “Sorry I’m late.” I looked at him and smiled weakly as I gave him the form and he immediately signed it. My heart shattered into pieces, I knew I’m a burden but I just didn’t know that he really didn’t want this baby. He really didn’t want my baby, our baby. I forced myself to start from crying and breaking down. The receptionist type onto the computer and gave me a paper with a number on it.
“Please go to this room Lee Sungmin-shi.” I stared at the number and slowly nodded. Kyuhyun walked me to the room and we arrived earlier than what I’ve expected. He sat down onto the bench just outside the room and here I am, thinking that maybe he would go with me or say good luck for the least. But I don’t think that’s ever happening. He just wants this baby to go away and fast. I let my tears fall as I walked into the room with hopes and confusion in my mind.
I slowly closed the door and there sat a gorgeous man in his doctor suit. “Come sit down Sungmin-shi…” the doctor invited me to sit onto the chairs in front of him. I read his name tag, Park Jungsu. “Before we start the operation, I would like to survey you so you wouldn’t leave with regrets and tears after doing it.” I nervously nodded.
“Are you willing to do this operation?” Am I willing? Yes? No? I don’t know? But Kyuhyun want this baby to be gone from his sight so he could live happily with his potential wife with no conflicts. And I’m not selfish to let it slide. “Y-yes.”
“Do you want this baby gone from your life? He/She is innocent.” Do I want the baby gone from my life? No. But, Kyuhyun want this baby to be gone from his life. “Y-yes.”
“Will you be happy and not regret everything you did after this?” Happy? No, I would be devastated. Regret? Of course I would, this baby is mine. But, Kyuhyun would be happy and wouldn’t regret anything based on the way he’s acting. “Y-yes.”
The doctor nodded and smiled happily at me. “Congratulations. You’re keeping the baby.” I was shocked. “W-what? N-no. Doctor… please… this is for his sake. His happiness is based on me now. I don’t him to be unhappy.” I desperately explained the situation. “His sake. Not your sake and your baby’s sake. If you’re worried about his sake, I have a plan. The only problem is will you keep the baby?”
!!End Of Sungmin’s POV!!
Sungmin was strolled out from the room; unconscious. Kyuhyun immediately stood up from his seat and approached the latter. He looked so fragile and weak. The doctor came out with a whole plastic of medicine in it. “Congratulations. Your baby’s gone and this is his healing medicine. Please let him take the medicine three times a day.” Kyuhyun nodded and followed to Sungmin’s room.
It’s been two weeks and Sungmin was allowed to go back to his house. Kyuhyun helped him packed his things out. Kyuhyun took hold of the plastic bag of medicine and hand it to Sungmin. “Three times a day, don’t skip them.” Sungmin nodded at the latter and took the medicine; slipping it into his bag. “Thank you…for everything. I’m sorry for being a burden to you. I should’ve done this earlier so you wouldn’t have to go through those hardships. I’ll keep my promise to you. I won’t bother you anymore…” Sungmin’s voice cracked a bit at the end and Kyuhyun noticed it but just ignored the fact that the thug in his heart hurt.
“Goodbye.” And that was the last time they ever talked or see each other.
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It’s been 5 years now. Sungmin looked at his son lovingly. Cho Sandeul, such a cute human being, very different from Cho Kyuhyun but Sandeul’s voice laterally reminds Sungmin of Kyuhyun. Those astonishing voice makes Sungmin heart beat the way it beats for him. The only remainder of Cho Kyuhyun to him.
“Umma…”
“Yes Sandeul ah?”
“Where’s daddy? You said I could meet him after I turn 5.” Sungmin stared at his son sadly. Yes. Lee Sungmin idiotly promised his son that he could meet his dad when he turns five. And now how Sungmin would tell his son that he couldn’t meet his dad because his dad didn’t love him and his dad didn’t love Sungmin too. “Oh baby,” Sungmin started as his son stared at him with a sparkle in his eyes. “You… will meet him when you turn 5. You’re still 4. Your birthday is in two days baby. You’ll meet him then.” There goes another lie. Sungmin sighed as his son slowly fell into a deep sleep. Now he has to think of what to do with the dad thing.
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“See you later baby,” Sungmin kissed his son’s forehead before his son ran inside the school. Sungmin looked at his son greeting his friends happily. Oh how Sungmin wished his son would forget all about last night but Sungmin doubt that. His son is too smart to forget about that. Just as Sungmin was about to went back into the car…
“Min?” Sungmin looked over to the voice that just called him and saw him. Donghae, Kyuhyun’s older brother. “Hae? What are you doing here?” Donghae chuckled and looked down beside him. Sungmin followed his gaze and saw a cute kid with a hip-hop hat on top of him. Sungmin gazed back at Donghae and was about to asked something when Donghae chuckled again. “He’s not mine. He’s…” And that’s when Sungmin understood all of that. It’s Kyuhyun’s son. “Oh…” Donghae nodded and he kissed Kyuhyun’s son cheek. The cute child walked coolly to the school. That kid does remind him of the cold side of Kyuhyun. “He does remind him of Kyuhyun, doesn’t he? That brat.” Donghae tried to bring a happy atmosphere again and Sungmin smiled.
“Why didn’t he bring his son to the school himself?” Sungmin asked. Donghae took a bit of time before he answered an honest question, “He went to mourn your baby.” That answer took Sungmin aback. “My baby?” Donghae nodded and explained about the one Sungmin went to the hospital to get rid of. Sungmin widen his eyes as he thought Kyuhyun would thought of their baby. Sungmin thought Kyuhyun hated him. “Question for you. What are you doing here?” Donghae stared at him and Sungmin sighed. “I lied to Kyuhyun. Our baby didn’t die. I kept him because the doctor didn’t want me to get rid of him. I’m here to take him to school of course. I thought Kyuhyun hated me and didn’t want me to be a burden. That’s why I…lied to him.” Sungmin could see that Donghae was shocked at his statement. “I guess… you could stop the lies now Lee Sungmin and told him the truth because he’s been devastated after you left. He married another woman but that woman died after Baro was born. He mourns your baby everyday. I think he’s going crazy because you left him. Luckily Baro is still there to keep him company.”
Sungmin felt sorry for Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun who didn’t love him would mourn for their baby. Their baby. “Where’s he?” And Donghae told the address of his house and Sungmin quickly went to drive to the house.
Arriving, Sungmin remembered Donghae telling him there’s a spare key under the carpet. Sungmin clutched the key on his palm and slowly opened the lock to the door. Inside was dark. Sungmin closed the door and walked slowly into the house. Kyuhyun’s house was big and clean but inside was so close-in that there’s only little lights coming into the house. It was quite but slowly as he walked more into the house, he could hear someone’s sob from outside the house. Sungmin slowly slide open the sliding door and was led to a beautiful garden with pink roses. He didn’t know pink roses exist. He walked outside the garden and touched the pink roses. So delicate and so fragile. He walked further to the garden and saw a guy kneeling down on the ground in front of a tree full with apples. He was about to approach him when he heard his conversation to himself and stopped.
“I’m sorry Sungmin ah. I love you. I’m in love with you and I ruined your life. Our baby is gone because of me. Please forgive me. I’m kneeling in front of our baby’s favourite fruit. You always eat this fruit when you’re pregnant and I would buy it for you everyday. You look so happy when I buy it for you. But I’m just so egoist to return that smile back and walk away. I don’t know how my hand finds it ways to sign that stupid paper. If I didn’t sign that paper, you and I would be together with our baby. It’s been five years since you’re gone. And I’ve been feeling guilty. I miss you. I miss you Sungmin ah…” Kyuhyun sobbed as he said those words. Sungmin without even knowing, the tears rolled down his cheek. He has been missing Kyuhyun too. And without even knowing, Sungmin ran to him and hugged him tightly from behind. Kyuhyun wiped his tears and looked behind him.
“S-Sungmin?” Kyuhyun stood up and turned around. Sungmin looked at him and Kyuhyun looked back. They both stared at each other. “What are you do--?” Without even finishing Kyuhyun’s sentences, Sungmin kissed him on the lips as his hands wrapped around Kyuhyun’s neck.
“I’ll forgive you if you’ll forgive me Kyu…”
“What are you talking about Min?”
“Our baby… our son… is still alive. I lied to you.” Sungmin slowly stated and was expecting a slap on the face but a tight hug come unexpectedly. “Oh my god. I’m so sorry you have to live a hard life. I’m sorry you have to grow him up on your own. I’m so sorry.” Sungmin couldn’t hold his tears again. It’s been 5 years and those 5 years, Sungmin and Kyuhyun had been living a life full of lies.
“Forgive me?” Kyuhyun stared into Sungmin’s eyes.
“I forgive you… Forgive me too?” Kyuhyun sighed a relief sigh and hugged him again. “You’ve never done anything wrong Min. I love you.” Sungmin smiled. “I love you too.”
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“Meet Kyuhyun appa.” Kyuhyun smiled and ruffled Sandeul’s hair. “Appa!” And Kyuhyun hold onto Sandeul who smiled a very satisfied face. Sungmin’s happy, genuinely happy with his life now. Very happy. “Are you happy Sandeul ah?” Sandeul nodded enthusiastically. “Yes. I meet appa today and I have a boyfriend today too.” Sungmin and Kyuhyun widen their eyes as they looked at each other. Kyuhyun put Sandeul down onto the ground as Sandeul ran to a cute boy and went back to them; bringing the boy with him. “Umma, appa, this is my boyfriend… Cho Baro.” And Kyuhyun and Sungmin thought they would have to lie again about this as they see both their child staring lovingly at each other. “I guess we can let them have a great relationship. We are a great parents after all.”
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THE END^^! Thank your for your help again^^! To @ohthissucks : I don't know how to write a possessive Kyuhyun so I can only write angst for you>.<
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