i dont know what im feeling right now...
i can't find the right icon for this...
just a few minutes ago... i learned that Dave, my cousin from Holland, was murdered... he was found dead in a hole last night i think... i dont know what hole, a ditch hole perhaps and i dont know the whole entire story... apparently he joined a group which i dont know what and got envied by others... when my brother told me the news, it took me 10 whole minutes before i could react, i was just standing there staring at my brother, dumbfounded by what i heard. he was staring at me while i was staring at him... i was desperately looking for any signs in his facial expression that would tell me he was lying or just joking. but there wasn't any. i can't believe my cousin is dead, what's worse murdered. it's just too painful thinking what he went through before he died... he was my aunt's only son and she loved him very much. i really dont understand what im feeling right now... i feel like crying my eyes out, i feel like killing the bastards that did that to him and i feel so sorry for my aunt... it really frustrates me, Dave was so young, in his mid 20s... i heard my mom was going hysterical when she heard the news, i know shes worried about my aunt coz my aunt has this little problem in the head thats triggered by stress, like the time of her divorce and stuff... and now this? i hope she comes back to the Philippines, atleast here, we can comfort her, unlike in Holland shes alone. eventhough i havent met my cousin in person, i have always hoped that id meet him someday... he went to Holland when he was still a few years old and i think my mom was still pregnant at that time... i guess now that wish will never happen... this Christmas would be a sad one for auntie Mathy...
its a lie right? tell me its not true... my cousin wasn't murdered right? i really want to believe that... shit! i cant stop myself from crying
just a few minutes ago... i learned that Dave, my cousin from Holland, was murdered... he was found dead in a hole last night i think... i dont know what hole, a ditch hole perhaps and i dont know the whole entire story... apparently he joined a group which i dont know what and got envied by others... when my brother told me the news, it took me 10 whole minutes before i could react, i was just standing there staring at my brother, dumbfounded by what i heard. he was staring at me while i was staring at him... i was desperately looking for any signs in his facial expression that would tell me he was lying or just joking. but there wasn't any. i can't believe my cousin is dead, what's worse murdered. it's just too painful thinking what he went through before he died... he was my aunt's only son and she loved him very much. i really dont understand what im feeling right now... i feel like crying my eyes out, i feel like killing the bastards that did that to him and i feel so sorry for my aunt... it really frustrates me, Dave was so young, in his mid 20s... i heard my mom was going hysterical when she heard the news, i know shes worried about my aunt coz my aunt has this little problem in the head thats triggered by stress, like the time of her divorce and stuff... and now this? i hope she comes back to the Philippines, atleast here, we can comfort her, unlike in Holland shes alone. eventhough i havent met my cousin in person, i have always hoped that id meet him someday... he went to Holland when he was still a few years old and i think my mom was still pregnant at that time... i guess now that wish will never happen... this Christmas would be a sad one for auntie Mathy...
its a lie right? tell me its not true... my cousin wasn't murdered right? i really want to believe that... shit! i cant stop myself from crying