Good food, not so good feelings
I have been eating too much good food lately. My stomach feels like it can burst anytime. With Chinese New Year round the corner, it looks like I can't escape from food!
I've been having weird mood swings lately. It's stress from various aspects. There are times I feel like I'm just a tiptoe away from throwing a big fuss and spiraling down into self pity. I detest that because my natural tendency is to escape. Sigh. Pity there is no magic button to press and say "It'll be fine when you wake up."
I won't explain so much about my work. I'm starting to feel more lonely and overly dependence on my guy for emotional support. Although things have gotten better now and my boss has started to treat me normally, I still feel unease. One moment I'm all fine, the next day I just feel lousy.
One of the few things that keep me from losing my cool is my faith. Without that, I will find it harder to survive. Yet, it is also the one that is giving me challenges.
LP's right side will go "Go ahead and bring it on!"
LP's left side will go "I just want to escape."
Rather than hearing everything will be ok, I want some things and people to simply disappear. Poof! Problems solved.
If you think I'm stuck and refuse to move on, I admit there are certain issues I find it hard to let go. Either:
1. I am too comfortable
2. I am fearful
3. I am adopting a wait and see attitude
4. I still have hope.
It's all of the above.
I've been having weird mood swings lately. It's stress from various aspects. There are times I feel like I'm just a tiptoe away from throwing a big fuss and spiraling down into self pity. I detest that because my natural tendency is to escape. Sigh. Pity there is no magic button to press and say "It'll be fine when you wake up."
I won't explain so much about my work. I'm starting to feel more lonely and overly dependence on my guy for emotional support. Although things have gotten better now and my boss has started to treat me normally, I still feel unease. One moment I'm all fine, the next day I just feel lousy.
One of the few things that keep me from losing my cool is my faith. Without that, I will find it harder to survive. Yet, it is also the one that is giving me challenges.
LP's right side will go "Go ahead and bring it on!"
LP's left side will go "I just want to escape."
Rather than hearing everything will be ok, I want some things and people to simply disappear. Poof! Problems solved.
If you think I'm stuck and refuse to move on, I admit there are certain issues I find it hard to let go. Either:
1. I am too comfortable
2. I am fearful
3. I am adopting a wait and see attitude
4. I still have hope.
It's all of the above.