The Letter ( another poem)
The Letter
A thousand time I have sat down to write this.
A thousand time I have torn it to shreds
The words I want never come out right
It becomes a jumbled mess.
I want to say I love you
Darling please come home
But what good would that do?
There is no home here any more.
For you or for me.
So what good would that do any way.
You would say “NO!”
I don’t know why I am writing.
Except I miss you so.
I want to see you.
To talk to you.
But I am nervous
I don’t know what to do.
I’m afraid
Afraid of what I may hear.
I don’t like this binding fear.
The biggest regret of my life.
The end of you and me.
The end of being your wife.
I never thought this would come to be.
I’ve tried to start again.
But I’m frozen in place.
I don’t know where to begin.
Every where I see your face.
I still wear your ring.
Like a fool I dream.
I cant feel the sting
Of you leaving me.
The letter
If I think of meeting someone new.
I feel unfaithful to you.
I doubt you feel the same way I do.
Thinking about it I don’t want this
Every day your missed.
Is this what you wanted?
Is this your wish? Is that why you flaunt it?
Not to be stuck with me anymore.
Was our life really such a bore?
DAMMITT!!!
You never tried to explain.
Do you care you caused me pain?
I should know or think,
That you don’t care.
That thought causes my heart to sink.
This is almost more than I can bear.
Still I would welcome you with arm open.
I wish that I could stop hoping.
What kind of fool am I?
To wish for you and cry.
On the other side of things
You say I hurt you deeply
That you may never heal completely.
You may never love again,
Open up to trust
That you don’t know where to begin
That your doing what you must.
The pain is great on both side,
We both said things to wound the others pride.
Lets grow up and love again,
If no longer lovers, maybe friends.
So many things about you I miss.
The way you smile. The way you kiss.
The way you tucked me in each night,
They way that you would hold me tight.
The way you sang me lullabies
Told me stories too.
The way you made me laugh until I cried.
This I miss about you.
Falling asleep head on your lap
The way you ran your fingers through my hair
With such tender loving care.
But you don’t miss any of these things.
You don’t feel the lingering pain.
I will never write again.
Just one more thing before I close
One more thing that you should know.
My heart will never truly let you go.
Love
Zoe
A thousand time I have sat down to write this.
A thousand time I have torn it to shreds
The words I want never come out right
It becomes a jumbled mess.
I want to say I love you
Darling please come home
But what good would that do?
There is no home here any more.
For you or for me.
So what good would that do any way.
You would say “NO!”
I don’t know why I am writing.
Except I miss you so.
I want to see you.
To talk to you.
But I am nervous
I don’t know what to do.
I’m afraid
Afraid of what I may hear.
I don’t like this binding fear.
The biggest regret of my life.
The end of you and me.
The end of being your wife.
I never thought this would come to be.
I’ve tried to start again.
But I’m frozen in place.
I don’t know where to begin.
Every where I see your face.
I still wear your ring.
Like a fool I dream.
I cant feel the sting
Of you leaving me.
The letter
If I think of meeting someone new.
I feel unfaithful to you.
I doubt you feel the same way I do.
Thinking about it I don’t want this
Every day your missed.
Is this what you wanted?
Is this your wish? Is that why you flaunt it?
Not to be stuck with me anymore.
Was our life really such a bore?
DAMMITT!!!
You never tried to explain.
Do you care you caused me pain?
I should know or think,
That you don’t care.
That thought causes my heart to sink.
This is almost more than I can bear.
Still I would welcome you with arm open.
I wish that I could stop hoping.
What kind of fool am I?
To wish for you and cry.
On the other side of things
You say I hurt you deeply
That you may never heal completely.
You may never love again,
Open up to trust
That you don’t know where to begin
That your doing what you must.
The pain is great on both side,
We both said things to wound the others pride.
Lets grow up and love again,
If no longer lovers, maybe friends.
So many things about you I miss.
The way you smile. The way you kiss.
The way you tucked me in each night,
They way that you would hold me tight.
The way you sang me lullabies
Told me stories too.
The way you made me laugh until I cried.
This I miss about you.
Falling asleep head on your lap
The way you ran your fingers through my hair
With such tender loving care.
But you don’t miss any of these things.
You don’t feel the lingering pain.
I will never write again.
Just one more thing before I close
One more thing that you should know.
My heart will never truly let you go.
Love
Zoe