Yuk!
I feel gross. Im sick and congested. I don't wanna leave my room. I take showers and still feel filthy. People at work are telling me to go home and get some rest but i can't. If this was last week then okay, but my credit card payment is due and I can't afford it if i don't work. I do this too much. I sacrifice my health for other things. Natalie wanted to hang out and introduce me to her friends. It was so hard for me to laugh and be as hyper as them. I had a high fever and i knew that it meant a lot to her. *sigh* "Where do you go....my lovely....where do you go....i wanna know...my lovely...where do you go?"
For some reason that old song has been in my head for a while. It commemorates the departure of people that were close to me. They are far away. Im growing up too fast. I look at so many other people and they still hang out and all live close to each other. Sometimes i wish that i could have amnesia and start completely over. I would go readmit myself into highschool and do better and such. It sucks when life proves to you that there are no redos.
Im over it.....i've yacked to much and am over feeling bad about my surroundings. I need to start looking at things differently. My guidance counselor used to always say, "You shouldn't worry about what you can't change". So true and so wise. Applies to so much. I need to talk to Brandon. I miss him. I need a hug...a good, wholesome, loving, squeeze you to death kind of hug. That'll do it. I also want a kiss. I want a long, slow, passionate, affectionate, embracing kiss. If i can find those, then i think i'll be set. it'll knock back some feeling into this numb body. I sound like an alien...lol. Moving on. Im gonna continue this chain of sweetness that is going on. People are being so nice to me and i think i should pass it on. So....today im gonna smile at 5 people and compliment 2. Adios....im off to save the world.
For some reason that old song has been in my head for a while. It commemorates the departure of people that were close to me. They are far away. Im growing up too fast. I look at so many other people and they still hang out and all live close to each other. Sometimes i wish that i could have amnesia and start completely over. I would go readmit myself into highschool and do better and such. It sucks when life proves to you that there are no redos.
Im over it.....i've yacked to much and am over feeling bad about my surroundings. I need to start looking at things differently. My guidance counselor used to always say, "You shouldn't worry about what you can't change". So true and so wise. Applies to so much. I need to talk to Brandon. I miss him. I need a hug...a good, wholesome, loving, squeeze you to death kind of hug. That'll do it. I also want a kiss. I want a long, slow, passionate, affectionate, embracing kiss. If i can find those, then i think i'll be set. it'll knock back some feeling into this numb body. I sound like an alien...lol. Moving on. Im gonna continue this chain of sweetness that is going on. People are being so nice to me and i think i should pass it on. So....today im gonna smile at 5 people and compliment 2. Adios....im off to save the world.