i am a goat, in a moat, with a boat, who's got the crack?
my head needs clearing:
to do type things:
- showering would probably be a good idea
- rearrange the room (i really don't need to, but i'm sick of it)
- psych reading and questions
- german something or other. who knows.
- paint my nails black again
- don't pick off the paint
- find out what the german hw is
- get photo stuff/figure out what i have/need
- read for screen studies
- do laundry (only not yet... i still have undies)
- stop forgetting to eat.
stuff:
- i've been feeling strange and awful recently.
- i wish i could say just whats on my mind all the time, only i don't have the courage.
- today was pretty good. i was gonna be mopey but people didn't let me. and i took a mini nap.
- i have recently found a somewhat kindred spirit. i enjoy the chats. i enjoy even more being able to say things and have someone reply "I KNOW!" rather then "ummm..."
- today i spent a long time talking to said person and it was swell. it didn't feel forced. i didn't realize until later how long the conversation had been. as a matter of fact, its still kinda going on. sweet deal.
- i wish it were spring
- i have a cut on my finger from a rock. the circumstances in which it came about are a bit troubling... my brains not liking it. ehhh. whatever. i was really cold. thats probably all.
- loads of things have been confusing me.
- i am experiencing writers block.
- i tried something new. i feel like i failed. but i don't have to share it. why do i feel like i failed at something i had never done and therefore could not have any expectations about??
- i am wearing thermal and am wrapped in a blanket and in about four seconds i'll be wearing fleece socks.
- this is crappy
- my roommate is not here. i am really enjoying the room to myself. i should rearrange it now without her in my way.
- i really need to pee. bad. but i don't want to walk to the bathroom because my feet hurt. ooooo the greater of two evils here...
- i need to drink more water
- i miss people
- i have a hard time liking myself. or thinking i am worth anything.
- i don't want to have to be in school next year.
- these all start with i... it bugs me. which is super dumb.
- i want to stop being a crappy friend.
- oh! and on my long term list of things to do: think about who close to you you might be hurting when you say things. aka think more.
- i think next time i am bored out of my mind i will teach myself more html.
- have been thinking a lot about velociraptors recently. all dinos actually... weird. then again not.
wow... sorry?
to do type things:
- showering would probably be a good idea
- rearrange the room (i really don't need to, but i'm sick of it)
- psych reading and questions
- german something or other. who knows.
- paint my nails black again
- don't pick off the paint
- find out what the german hw is
- get photo stuff/figure out what i have/need
- read for screen studies
- do laundry (only not yet... i still have undies)
- stop forgetting to eat.
stuff:
- i've been feeling strange and awful recently.
- i wish i could say just whats on my mind all the time, only i don't have the courage.
- today was pretty good. i was gonna be mopey but people didn't let me. and i took a mini nap.
- i have recently found a somewhat kindred spirit. i enjoy the chats. i enjoy even more being able to say things and have someone reply "I KNOW!" rather then "ummm..."
- today i spent a long time talking to said person and it was swell. it didn't feel forced. i didn't realize until later how long the conversation had been. as a matter of fact, its still kinda going on. sweet deal.
- i wish it were spring
- i have a cut on my finger from a rock. the circumstances in which it came about are a bit troubling... my brains not liking it. ehhh. whatever. i was really cold. thats probably all.
- loads of things have been confusing me.
- i am experiencing writers block.
- i tried something new. i feel like i failed. but i don't have to share it. why do i feel like i failed at something i had never done and therefore could not have any expectations about??
- i am wearing thermal and am wrapped in a blanket and in about four seconds i'll be wearing fleece socks.
- this is crappy
- my roommate is not here. i am really enjoying the room to myself. i should rearrange it now without her in my way.
- i really need to pee. bad. but i don't want to walk to the bathroom because my feet hurt. ooooo the greater of two evils here...
- i need to drink more water
- i miss people
- i have a hard time liking myself. or thinking i am worth anything.
- i don't want to have to be in school next year.
- these all start with i... it bugs me. which is super dumb.
- i want to stop being a crappy friend.
- oh! and on my long term list of things to do: think about who close to you you might be hurting when you say things. aka think more.
- i think next time i am bored out of my mind i will teach myself more html.
- have been thinking a lot about velociraptors recently. all dinos actually... weird. then again not.
wow... sorry?