What If

[saphiredreamer]

So today was kind of boring. I had so many things planned but just ended up sleeping the whole day. I did talk to my lovely husband, which is always amusing, but other than that I just relaxed. I just woke up and hungout with Vic. He got my mind thinking about photography ideas for shoots, since i am his muse/artistic director. Well in this thinking I came across other thoughts which shouldnt be in my mind. Mainly what if I didnt meet Damien or if we didnt progress further. What if me and Jersey tried to be more than the friends that we now arent. I know that when I went to see him that there really wasnt a "spark" or real major connection, but what if that was because I just got engaged and was into Damien. I hate having these thoughts. There are so many what ifs in the world and I dont want it to mess up my marriage. I think the biggest thing is that I lost Greg as a friend and hate that. He was cute and charming. A lil out of my league, maybe its that thinking I need a challenge, someone who pushes me to be smarter. Then again I find out new things about Damien every time we talk. Well this is just me thinking out loud and I know that I have no friends that use this anymore so whatever.

Pearl of today is that we should all remain in the moment we are in. If we think about how things could've been we could mess all that is great now. Oh and dont watch stupid lifetime movies they tend to make u think these thoughts. Movies about changing destiny. Just let it be.