a lazy update

Nov 28, 2005 10:40

~you know what is a really good breakfast? brie and blackberry jam on a bagel. quite tasty, and slightly sophisticated. you know, the brie part ( Read more... )

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mamaste November 28 2005, 08:12:31 UTC
having two under two is like the v v worst nightmare ever ever ever ever ever on earth for the first two years. it's so funny, I was at a bakery last week with the kids and they were being really mellow and whatever, they were a little wiggly because they were excited because we were getting Nero's birthday cake, but they were good, they were fine. I had to repeat myself 500 times to ask them to sit down (again!) but it was no big deal. and the woman said to me, v kindly, when it was my turn, "you have your hands full today." and I was like, "mm, yes." but really? I was thinking, this is nothing! you should have seen me when my hands were so full I couldn't leave the house! couldn't put away the clean laundry!!! when I strapped them into their carseats and drove them around so as not to kill them!!!

then, boy, did I have my hands full.

but now it's ok. there's a bad patch between the youngest being 15m and 3years where it is v v hard on your property, but whatever. it would majorly cramp yr style to have older kids, too, I'd think.

plus, what are you? a rural-living christian? you already have three kids. jeez.

also, Kathy was right, I was talking about how I had been thinking of you and I was feeling like an asshole because I hadn't reached out to see if you wanted to play on one of my days in the city, but that also I had a suspicion that things were a little hard for you right now and I didn't want to add to it or whatever by saying, "HEY CAN YOU COME TO THE CITY AND HANG OUT LIKE THE GOOD OLD DAYS REMEMBER THOSE HAHAHA!" or whatever. because that kind of thing would make me go a little off my nut if I were feeling any kind of feelings already. so I didn't know what to do.

anyhow. ok.

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santosha November 28 2005, 08:22:33 UTC
well, i do like being invited! plus, i have relatives all around to pawn my big kids off on if i so desire. so invite me sometime!

i'm ovulating again so i think dumb thoughts. i can't decide if i'm done or if i'm not and if i'm not is it smarter to just get insane and do it all now or perhaps to wait a solid 5 years. jim and i talk it over and every time we decide to wait the 5 years but my uterus doesn't believe me.

rural christian! like that lady on the compound! that is SO where i'm aiming to be!

i'm making myself feel feelings. that's why i temporarily broke up with melvin. those feelings, ugh.

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