I'm Living In Your Letters...Tom Conrad/Jon Walker
Title: I'm living in your letters...
Pairing: Tom Conrad/Jon Walker
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: This never happened. Title belongs to Dashboard Confessional. Jon Walker and Tom Conrad belong to each other. (:
Summary: He'll keep living in their letters, though. He'll stare at photographs that make him smile.
Jon ran his fingers over the letter, scanned his eyes over it one more time before dropping it back into the box of things that reminded him of Tom. Jon always loved hand written letters. His past, he knew, was something he couldn't run away from. He tried time and time again, but he failed each time.
There was something about Tom that Jon just couldn't let go of. Tom was just about perfect, but that wasn't it. It was something more, Jon knew. Maybe it was their connection. The way they could finish each other's sentences and the way they both had a thing for photography. No, it wasn't that Tom was perfect, but it was that they were perfect together that made Jon long to have Tom with him again.
His gaze dropped to the box again. It was nothing special. A small brown box with no writing on the sides. He kept it in his closet at home and tried not to take it out and look at the memory packed items placed inside.
Movie stubs, tickets, magazines, CDs, pictures, letters...
Jon took a deep breath and reached his hand into the box. He gripped a creased photo in his hand. It wasn't the greatest picture of them. It was old and tearing at one edge. It was taken after a show while he was The Academy Is' tech. They were just standing next to each other, arms slung around the other's shoulder carelessly. It was before they got together, even. But the picture still held a piece of almost every memory Jon ever had with Tom: Happiness.
One thing Tom could always do to Jon was make him happy. He didn't have to do much, really. He could just smile at Jon, or take a picture, or sit and watch a movie with him. It was pretty hard for Jon not to be happy when he was around Tom.
They had their moments, though. The moments when nothing went right and they couldn't seem to stop yelling at each other for two seconds to realize they weren't fighting about anything specific anyways. The moments Jon hated the most.
The end of their relationship, unfortunately, was a lot of fighting and yelling. Phone calls ended with no "I love you, too" from Tom and letters with holes in them from the pen being pressed so angrily to the paper. Jon really, really hated when his life became a downward spiral of tears and anger.
Something that Jon regrets is the way they ended. The bitter break-up that was never reconciled. The angry glares and the fact that they hadn't spoken a word to each other since the whole ordeal occurred. That's what Jon can not stand thinking about.
Their ending was a letter written in blue ink. A letter that held the absolute worst moment of Jon's life in a few simple paragraphs. It basically said that they were over, that Jon had no time for him and he was tired of trying so hard to be Jon's priority. It said that he couldn't be around Jon anymore and he needed to live life from a new perspective. He needed a fresh start. One that couldn't include Jon and Jon had to get over it.
Jon missed his boyfriend Tom, sure, but he really missed his best friend Tom. He always thought if they broke up they would end as friends. He would do anything for Tom to be his friend again.
He's called Tom a million times. Tom's answering machine isn't foreign to Jon. He has it memorized to the point where he can hear it his head sometimes. He likes hearing Tom's voice, even if it's just an answering machine.
He'll keep living in their letters, though. He'll stare at photographs that make him smile.
He won't give up up on Tom because Tom just isn't one of those guys you can give up on.
Pairing: Tom Conrad/Jon Walker
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: This never happened. Title belongs to Dashboard Confessional. Jon Walker and Tom Conrad belong to each other. (:
Summary: He'll keep living in their letters, though. He'll stare at photographs that make him smile.
Jon ran his fingers over the letter, scanned his eyes over it one more time before dropping it back into the box of things that reminded him of Tom. Jon always loved hand written letters. His past, he knew, was something he couldn't run away from. He tried time and time again, but he failed each time.
There was something about Tom that Jon just couldn't let go of. Tom was just about perfect, but that wasn't it. It was something more, Jon knew. Maybe it was their connection. The way they could finish each other's sentences and the way they both had a thing for photography. No, it wasn't that Tom was perfect, but it was that they were perfect together that made Jon long to have Tom with him again.
His gaze dropped to the box again. It was nothing special. A small brown box with no writing on the sides. He kept it in his closet at home and tried not to take it out and look at the memory packed items placed inside.
Movie stubs, tickets, magazines, CDs, pictures, letters...
Jon took a deep breath and reached his hand into the box. He gripped a creased photo in his hand. It wasn't the greatest picture of them. It was old and tearing at one edge. It was taken after a show while he was The Academy Is' tech. They were just standing next to each other, arms slung around the other's shoulder carelessly. It was before they got together, even. But the picture still held a piece of almost every memory Jon ever had with Tom: Happiness.
One thing Tom could always do to Jon was make him happy. He didn't have to do much, really. He could just smile at Jon, or take a picture, or sit and watch a movie with him. It was pretty hard for Jon not to be happy when he was around Tom.
They had their moments, though. The moments when nothing went right and they couldn't seem to stop yelling at each other for two seconds to realize they weren't fighting about anything specific anyways. The moments Jon hated the most.
The end of their relationship, unfortunately, was a lot of fighting and yelling. Phone calls ended with no "I love you, too" from Tom and letters with holes in them from the pen being pressed so angrily to the paper. Jon really, really hated when his life became a downward spiral of tears and anger.
Something that Jon regrets is the way they ended. The bitter break-up that was never reconciled. The angry glares and the fact that they hadn't spoken a word to each other since the whole ordeal occurred. That's what Jon can not stand thinking about.
Their ending was a letter written in blue ink. A letter that held the absolute worst moment of Jon's life in a few simple paragraphs. It basically said that they were over, that Jon had no time for him and he was tired of trying so hard to be Jon's priority. It said that he couldn't be around Jon anymore and he needed to live life from a new perspective. He needed a fresh start. One that couldn't include Jon and Jon had to get over it.
Jon missed his boyfriend Tom, sure, but he really missed his best friend Tom. He always thought if they broke up they would end as friends. He would do anything for Tom to be his friend again.
He's called Tom a million times. Tom's answering machine isn't foreign to Jon. He has it memorized to the point where he can hear it his head sometimes. He likes hearing Tom's voice, even if it's just an answering machine.
He'll keep living in their letters, though. He'll stare at photographs that make him smile.
He won't give up up on Tom because Tom just isn't one of those guys you can give up on.