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I worked so hard and for what? I never enjoyed any of my high school years and did my homework like a good little girl, got good grades and for what!? To go to a school that accepts basically everyone instead of living out my dream? Was it worth it?
Having an emo day don't mind me. I feel...average. Why didn't my parents ever push me to do what I wanted. I pushed myself all the way through school and I've told them I don't want to go to college, but I'm pretty much being forced and have no way out of that. Just cause dad made the mistake and never went to college doesn't mean I should suffer the consequences. I want to act, and I've spent hours on the computer looking up classes and told that we'll sign up tomorrow until eventually tomorrow becomes 'too late.' That's how life feels right now. I keep putting off my dreams for what they want and expect of me until eventually one day it will once again be too late.
Why do parents say "you can do anything you want to" if they don't mean it? They say I might be able to go in two years once prerequisites are done. Who are they kidding, tuition prices are just going to rise not fall! I feel trapped, I can't get out of college, I can't get out of Florida. It feels like an eternity.
But most of all I hate money and it's corrupt hold upon the human race. It keeps the downtrodden down and the rich people rich. It's a never ending circle and makes us do vile things.
"Regan, sometimes life isn't fair" I think the phrase "Regan, life is never fair" is more accurate. I know my life isn't that bad. gosh.
On the upside it snowed today.
Having an emo day don't mind me. I feel...average. Why didn't my parents ever push me to do what I wanted. I pushed myself all the way through school and I've told them I don't want to go to college, but I'm pretty much being forced and have no way out of that. Just cause dad made the mistake and never went to college doesn't mean I should suffer the consequences. I want to act, and I've spent hours on the computer looking up classes and told that we'll sign up tomorrow until eventually tomorrow becomes 'too late.' That's how life feels right now. I keep putting off my dreams for what they want and expect of me until eventually one day it will once again be too late.
Why do parents say "you can do anything you want to" if they don't mean it? They say I might be able to go in two years once prerequisites are done. Who are they kidding, tuition prices are just going to rise not fall! I feel trapped, I can't get out of college, I can't get out of Florida. It feels like an eternity.
But most of all I hate money and it's corrupt hold upon the human race. It keeps the downtrodden down and the rich people rich. It's a never ending circle and makes us do vile things.
"Regan, sometimes life isn't fair" I think the phrase "Regan, life is never fair" is more accurate. I know my life isn't that bad. gosh.
On the upside it snowed today.