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[santahats]

I hate myself
I seriously do
I haven't done anything for anybody
I'm a horrible person
I hate going through life like this
day in day out
never being happy
I wish I could go to sleep without crying
I wish I could go out and have fun
I wish these things but I can't change
no matter how hard I try
I want to be normal
and when I smile I want to mean it
I hate being so lathargic
I get tired so easily
even when I've had fourteen hours of sleep
it doesn't make sense
I want to make sense
truely I do
I can't
that just wouldn't be me