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[santahats]

Tears fall from these eyes
I don't even know why anymore
they just, continue
I just want to end the pain
I don't see the point in trying anymore

people say it'll all work out
they've been saying it for years
it seems that they are wrong
it won't get better
who am I kidding?

I've lost 13 pounds since the beginning of the year
I'm proud of myself
but I'm still pushing myself
for what? I don't know