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[sansunparapluie]

Everybody is looking for a place to die (so won't you lend me your heart) - one; PG-13
note: same universe as my SSS 2012 fic, but much, much earlier. the idea, before it found its universe, began in physics class and as original fiction. but since it pleases me for this to be read as onho, it is now a fic of onho (in their past lives...or

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[sansunparapluie]

lol there are barely any words in this ;; nowadays I don't have much time to think about my stories, much less write them. alas, my second year of graduate school is turning out to be much busier than my first year. since we're already a week into november, I presume that you're done with midterms? it'd be awfully close to final exam time to still be having midterms. but yeah, no breathing room. me too. I constantly find myself between one deadline and the next. it's stressful. one good thing to come out of it is that I'm back to my junior high sleeping schedule, which is much healither than my undergrad sleeping schedule lmao.

...so I take your sanity came back and you have five classes next semester..?

yes and no. I think it depends on the job. for the types of jobs that don't follow you home after work, yes, working is easier. this was what my first lab internship was like. since I was doing basic experiments, I did not have to do extensive reading or projecting designing or troubleshooting, so all after work hours were completely mine. it felt super. and then I had to go back to fall classes and it sucked . but anyway. there are jobs that do run over the usual 9-5 and they can eat your life up too. :/ my friend's dad used to work overtime all the time.

[sansunparapluie]

your undergrad sounds so much more intense than mine. the majority of my undergrad courses had only a midterm and a final. and midterms usually fell between the end of september and the beginning of november. (so mainly october, really truly mid term.) do you have a good finals schedule at least?

it feels so good to get things done early instead of letting them run closer to (or right up to) the deadline. only if I could motivate myself to do so on more occasions. OTL it's really hard to get started, but once I do, I tend to get one thing after the other done. I always felt the most ready to study for an exam right after I've just finished writing one.

to that last question: ...................................................................yes.
to distract you from that answer:

[sansunparapluie]

over the course of my undergrad, my try-hard-ness went on a gradual decline. throughout high school, the actual percent grade mattered, so everybody was fighting for every last percent. but in university, it's back to letter grades again (well, you get percent grades, but what ultimately shows on your transcript are letter grades). so as long as I could maintain a 4.0 (or as close to a 4.0 as possible), that was all it mattered. I was actually less stressed about marks in uni compared to high school...though this didn't start settling in till second year.

I think I've told you this before, I was making full course notes, color coded, strict system of "bold"/italics/underlining as well as numbering/bullet points. I still have those notes, very pretty to look at. also the creation of those note helped me study. but then I slacked off from that. what am I trying to say? good question...um......so keep up the good study habits, hang on to those and to your motivation. but keep the level of stress healthy. don't ever beat yourself up over a bad exam mark or even a bad course mark. you're at a stage in life where you should be enjoying yourself. find yourself daily doses of happy things. it's great that you are giving yourself "you time" everyday, outside of "school time".

my level of stress about exams fell too much and I lost the motivation to get things done early, so my CGPA took a hit and consequently my level of stress about life went way up. this is a prime example of what not to do lol.

speaking of stress about life. I've had life talks with labmates, from graduate students my age, to senior graduate students/post docs, to research associates several kids into making a family. I don't know whether to laugh or cry but it seems like everybody is dealing with uncertainties and nobody has got it figured out, even the one guy who knows he wants to be a professor in the future. we just sit together and sigh and envy the people who know exactly what they're doing and how to get there and don't get wrenches thrown into their plans.

I now only have graduate level courses, so that means at most I take one course per semester. such courses also tend not to have exams but rather base evaluation upon presentations, discussion participation, etc. however, I find it much more time consuming than any single undergrad course. x__x

my second year so far has been much busier than my first. it's just one thing after another, applications to write, work to do for my course, experiments, prepping for presentations/conferences... I'm the happiest when I'm putting together and analyzing my data though. I find a great sense of fulfillment in that, lol. also, I will tackle my first TA position next semester. :)

well, for a more angst type of writer, this is only my third time killing his character....../runs away/