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So I have not posted in forever. My bad yo.
I was inspired to post today by Ms. Emilina Mason who has shown me that these journals we have created, even though occationally viewed by others, are first and formost our own spaces- this is where I can write out some crap.
I am well.
Finished a show the end of June, saw Aaron's 10 Min. last weekend of June in DC, and am onto making money, auditioning and getting shit done for the rest of the summer. I just got back from an amazing trip to Maine with Aaron- though the trip home was also to get my wisdom teeth out. I only had two, in my upper jaw, and they were not impacted, so it went well. Healing seems to be taking forever though. I have an audition Tuesday and I hope my jaw can open better by then-- eek :) Other than surgery Maine was great and ever time I leave there I have to wonder why I don't just stay... (because I can't- melodramatic sigh :)
Aaron and I are great and I think I am finally with someone I can talk to, be myself with, be nuts with and still communicate with. So yeah, he's a good one. His father is dieing though and thats been kinda hard. I really like his Dad and he's too young to be dieing of cancer- 67- but isn't that so often the case? Aaron's Mom just lost her Mother this year so she has been inundated with crap and that just isn't fair. Sigh. I wish the whole family the best and give them lots of love...just like one ginormous perverbial hug, ya know? Corny, but neccisary.
Done two off-off broadways and getting antsy...kinda itching for Equity Membership Candidate points or even a contract but I think since I like experimental stuff and workshops, Equity might not be such a good idea... yet. I also wanna travel but that's a whole different deal...Road tripping in this economy, gas prices, etc. Not such a good idea right? Too bad.
I may get to go to Hong Kong and Singapore for work though...we will see what I decide...or if they change my boss' plans.
Severly lacking in the social life area because during the summer work takes me out of town a lot. I miss my friends but, I don't know. I have begun to realy dislike being high because I get the munchies and act like a nut- not that I have to do drugs with them, but that is the pattern. I don't see myself sticking to drinking just two at any event because, well, I am my father's daughter- and with my weight is always a factor, and the way alchohol kicks my ass- two is enough and that is unheard of with my friends...or is this all just in my head? I vote that 65% is...but who knows. They are heavy drinkers and I just can't keep up- and I hate being a downer for them.
I am going off the ADD meds. We will see how much they really affected me or helped me. My shrink thinks I am just hyperactive sometimes, which many people grow out of. I dont know. My diagnosing folks seemed to think I had ADHD with the ADD fun all kinds of messing with me...but who knows. I have plently of coping mechinisms, learned lots of new ways to learn and I take notes like a feind, so I think I am kosher. I just have to make sure I catch myself when I am being lazy vs. ADHDing out of doing what I 'should' be. I am also still only 25 and only need to take care of me so now is the time to slack a lil' right? I was kinda an over acheiver for a bit there- eek.
Aaron moved in with me and my house is overrun in books. That's kinda cool. Makes it a lot easier for him to get back to Chicago to see his family...and he was here most nights of the week anyway. I really like this one folks. We are both nurodic as fuck and creative and love theatre and hate theatre polotics and love NYC and eachother and...and...he's really fucking cute. He makes me kinda giddy. I digress.
I feel kinda down right now. Post vacation sadness, tired from the teeth healing and yesterday's traveling, Adderall withdrawl? Dont wanna make phone calls, dont wanna clean things or do the things I should. Oh, wait, I am in the section of pills in my Birthday Control that makes total sense that I should be mopy, the sugar pills- you know?...dont you love horomonally induced blah? and to think, I do this to myself. So now that I have written this out and realized the horomones are stacked against me, I think I am gonna pull my head out my butt and get on some fun things and slowly work through the list. Sprinkle in some monologe work with the to do lists and I will be a much happier camper- oooh! Maybe today I will wear a dress and be pretty. But get changed to clean the bathroom and kitchen! Hehehe.
I miss and love you- you all out there.
How are you?
I was inspired to post today by Ms. Emilina Mason who has shown me that these journals we have created, even though occationally viewed by others, are first and formost our own spaces- this is where I can write out some crap.
I am well.
Finished a show the end of June, saw Aaron's 10 Min. last weekend of June in DC, and am onto making money, auditioning and getting shit done for the rest of the summer. I just got back from an amazing trip to Maine with Aaron- though the trip home was also to get my wisdom teeth out. I only had two, in my upper jaw, and they were not impacted, so it went well. Healing seems to be taking forever though. I have an audition Tuesday and I hope my jaw can open better by then-- eek :) Other than surgery Maine was great and ever time I leave there I have to wonder why I don't just stay... (because I can't- melodramatic sigh :)
Aaron and I are great and I think I am finally with someone I can talk to, be myself with, be nuts with and still communicate with. So yeah, he's a good one. His father is dieing though and thats been kinda hard. I really like his Dad and he's too young to be dieing of cancer- 67- but isn't that so often the case? Aaron's Mom just lost her Mother this year so she has been inundated with crap and that just isn't fair. Sigh. I wish the whole family the best and give them lots of love...just like one ginormous perverbial hug, ya know? Corny, but neccisary.
Done two off-off broadways and getting antsy...kinda itching for Equity Membership Candidate points or even a contract but I think since I like experimental stuff and workshops, Equity might not be such a good idea... yet. I also wanna travel but that's a whole different deal...Road tripping in this economy, gas prices, etc. Not such a good idea right? Too bad.
I may get to go to Hong Kong and Singapore for work though...we will see what I decide...or if they change my boss' plans.
Severly lacking in the social life area because during the summer work takes me out of town a lot. I miss my friends but, I don't know. I have begun to realy dislike being high because I get the munchies and act like a nut- not that I have to do drugs with them, but that is the pattern. I don't see myself sticking to drinking just two at any event because, well, I am my father's daughter- and with my weight is always a factor, and the way alchohol kicks my ass- two is enough and that is unheard of with my friends...or is this all just in my head? I vote that 65% is...but who knows. They are heavy drinkers and I just can't keep up- and I hate being a downer for them.
I am going off the ADD meds. We will see how much they really affected me or helped me. My shrink thinks I am just hyperactive sometimes, which many people grow out of. I dont know. My diagnosing folks seemed to think I had ADHD with the ADD fun all kinds of messing with me...but who knows. I have plently of coping mechinisms, learned lots of new ways to learn and I take notes like a feind, so I think I am kosher. I just have to make sure I catch myself when I am being lazy vs. ADHDing out of doing what I 'should' be. I am also still only 25 and only need to take care of me so now is the time to slack a lil' right? I was kinda an over acheiver for a bit there- eek.
Aaron moved in with me and my house is overrun in books. That's kinda cool. Makes it a lot easier for him to get back to Chicago to see his family...and he was here most nights of the week anyway. I really like this one folks. We are both nurodic as fuck and creative and love theatre and hate theatre polotics and love NYC and eachother and...and...he's really fucking cute. He makes me kinda giddy. I digress.
I feel kinda down right now. Post vacation sadness, tired from the teeth healing and yesterday's traveling, Adderall withdrawl? Dont wanna make phone calls, dont wanna clean things or do the things I should. Oh, wait, I am in the section of pills in my Birthday Control that makes total sense that I should be mopy, the sugar pills- you know?...dont you love horomonally induced blah? and to think, I do this to myself. So now that I have written this out and realized the horomones are stacked against me, I think I am gonna pull my head out my butt and get on some fun things and slowly work through the list. Sprinkle in some monologe work with the to do lists and I will be a much happier camper- oooh! Maybe today I will wear a dress and be pretty. But get changed to clean the bathroom and kitchen! Hehehe.
I miss and love you- you all out there.
How are you?