Is it so easy to see dysfunction between you and me.
I suppose these few days can be described as being eventful. I've been really angry lately though and I don't know why. Everything just gets on my damn nerves. I thought it was hilarious today that smart-mouthed sophomores got played, even though in reality it was kind of mean. I mean they definitely deserved it but I guess it could've been done in a more...gentle manner. I don't know. I thought it was hilarious.
People piss me off sometimes. I realized that I like to be alone. Growing up an only child will do that to you. Of course it's always fun to have friends around to joke and hang out or do whatever, but being alone is something priceless. Living in a big city, or a dorm, or a house full of extended relatives will make you grateful for silence. I don't think I truly appreciate the silence and time alone that my mom gives me. I mean sure she comes in once in a while to remind of things or just check up on me, but she leaves me alone when I'm doing work or something. I should be more grateful.
So the four goals from last time aren't doing so well. I taught myself to ride a bike today! :) However, I am not really eating less junk food although I haven't even any fast food for a while now. Going past Taco Bell/KFC every time I go to work doesn't help very much with that lol. I haven't gone running on Sundays yet because I'm waiting for my dad to get back with my running shoes.
I asked him to get me some that were good for people with flat feet, and then he went and spent like freaking $700 in HK money (about $90 U.S. dollars) on a pair of shoes and then got different pair as well because it was on sale. He does that a lot. When I ask him to buy me something in HK thinking it'll be simple and just whatever. Then he goes and spends a ridiculous amount of money on it. I feel really guilty. I know that if he didn't move to Hong Kong he wouldn't be spending so much money on something for me. Sometimes I wish he just never moved away. First of all I miss him. Second of all, now that I'm reflecting back on my high school career as a whole, I realize that he has literally missed all of it. He wasn't there on my first day of high school. He wasn't there when I went to my first prom. I mean, high school is a huge turning point in one's life. It makes me sad that when I'm older and think back to memories of high school, he won't be in them.
I wish it were possible to just pause and take a break from all this stress. I think I need a beach session soon. Thursday would've been perfect but three of my teachers decided that it would be a good idea to just give tests on Friday. Thank you, teachers.
People piss me off sometimes. I realized that I like to be alone. Growing up an only child will do that to you. Of course it's always fun to have friends around to joke and hang out or do whatever, but being alone is something priceless. Living in a big city, or a dorm, or a house full of extended relatives will make you grateful for silence. I don't think I truly appreciate the silence and time alone that my mom gives me. I mean sure she comes in once in a while to remind of things or just check up on me, but she leaves me alone when I'm doing work or something. I should be more grateful.
So the four goals from last time aren't doing so well. I taught myself to ride a bike today! :) However, I am not really eating less junk food although I haven't even any fast food for a while now. Going past Taco Bell/KFC every time I go to work doesn't help very much with that lol. I haven't gone running on Sundays yet because I'm waiting for my dad to get back with my running shoes.
I asked him to get me some that were good for people with flat feet, and then he went and spent like freaking $700 in HK money (about $90 U.S. dollars) on a pair of shoes and then got different pair as well because it was on sale. He does that a lot. When I ask him to buy me something in HK thinking it'll be simple and just whatever. Then he goes and spends a ridiculous amount of money on it. I feel really guilty. I know that if he didn't move to Hong Kong he wouldn't be spending so much money on something for me. Sometimes I wish he just never moved away. First of all I miss him. Second of all, now that I'm reflecting back on my high school career as a whole, I realize that he has literally missed all of it. He wasn't there on my first day of high school. He wasn't there when I went to my first prom. I mean, high school is a huge turning point in one's life. It makes me sad that when I'm older and think back to memories of high school, he won't be in them.
I wish it were possible to just pause and take a break from all this stress. I think I need a beach session soon. Thursday would've been perfect but three of my teachers decided that it would be a good idea to just give tests on Friday. Thank you, teachers.