Junsu's Scandal 3/0
Title: Junsu's Scandal 3/0
Rating: PG13
Pairing: Taecyeon/Junsu
Summary: About Taecsu
A/N: i really need to do this but i dont know about this chapter, but fuck it, i'm going to update it. hahahaha
Ezra was playing with Chansung and Wooyoung, as Nadia sat in the couch talking to Nichkhun and Junho. Taecyeon just had his bath as he eyes scanned the house for the older man’s presence, and his eyes caught something moves inside Junsu’s small recording studio. Just as Taecyeon about to move it wider,
“Yes, hyung. I understand.” Junsu voiced were heard, Taecyeon moved closer to the half open door, eavesdrop what Taecyeon guessed as Junsu’s conversation with JYP.
“Wait, hyung. You don’t understand, I like myself when I’m with her.” Junsu sounded so desperate, little did he know Taecyeon felt the same way, soon as he heard, ‘I like myself when I’m with her’.
Then you don’t like yourself when you with me, Junsu? Taecyeon questioned to himself as he steadied himself,
“I know. It’s just, just let me, this time, okay? I mean, I gave you that successful solo album, your profits and you know I already tried so hard for years and complied your every request and now, can you just please let me do this. Please, hyung.” Taecyeon’s face changed, completely. As much as he knew Junsu, he never heard the older boy begging for something except for something he really wanted and something that was so important that he could even risk everything. As much as he knew Junsu, his hyung only 3 times pleading to JYP, one, when he begged JYP to not let go Jaebeom, second, when he had his plastic surgery, and third when he begged to do his solo project.
Taecyeon blinked as his mouth agape. He never thought his hyung would beg for some scandal like this. He never thought Junsu would beg for girl like her. Unless, this was no scandal at all, that Junsu was serious. That Junsu was real about Nadia and Ezra. That Junsu’s weekly, monthly secret meeting with her finally had destination, aimed at something. Maybe this was that ‘explanation’ Junsu and Nadia going to explain. Taecyeon’s heart never beat this fast before. They never gave this type of weird reaction before. Not when his little brother decided to go to army earlier than him, not when he left his mom and dad, not when he broke up with his last girlfriend 4 years ago and definitely not when he was with Jessica.
It was all strange feelings for Taecyeon. Like he wanted to walk to Junsu and told him to stop whatever he’s going to do with Nadia. Like he wanted to beg Junsu for stop pleading at their boss. Too many thoughts at Taecyeon’s brain, and too many difference, weird feelings in his heart, he doesn’t even realized Junsu already standing in front of him.
“Taec?” Junsu questioned as Taecyeon blinked staring front to the older boy,
“What are you doing?” Taecyeon gulped, never thought Junsu were standing so closed to him,
“W-who do you just called?” Taecyeon asked,
“Ah…It was Jinyoung hyung.”
“Really? What he said? No, what you said?”
“Hmmm…I said I am dating her but he said the fact that Nadia is a widow is the one that will jeopardize my career. He also said, he will find me another girl to date, another Jessica to date.”
Taecyeon’s held on his chest as he heard the other’s explanation,
“Then what you said, Junsu?”
“I said I don’t want to date any girl except her.” Junsu smiled to Taecyeon,
“Then you begged.” Taecyeon whispered, looking straight to Junsu’s eyes as the other could only shrugged,
“It’s weird, huh?” Junsu said before he patted Taecyeon’s shoulder and walked off, leaving Taecyeon dumbfounded by all his answers.
Junsu turned around, his smiled immediately faded from his face. He was trying, trying so hard to cover everything, trying to cover that tingle feelings when Taecyeon asked what he said to Jinyoung hyung about Nadia. He was trying to cover the fact that since the first time; he realized Taecyeon was standing there. He was trying to cover that butterflies flying around his stomach when Taecyeon showed him that sad face when the tall boy heard his conversation. Junsu calmed himself, remembering that this was all nothing, it’s not Taecyeon who gave him that signs, but it was Junsu making things up.
Junsu looked front, to where Nadia and Ezra sitting and playing. He smiled warmly at them as he walked to them. Junsu bent down as he pulled Ezra off the ground, swung him in the air, and gave his other friends weird reaction as they thought they never saw Junsu this happy before. Both Wooyoung and Nichkhun stared at each other as Chansung and Junho also did the same, they could only shrugged it off before they finally smiled at their hyung as Ezra giggled hard and Nadia told Junsu to slow down. Junsu loved both Nadia and Ezra, though he felt like he was using them, but he like spending his time with them, that certain happy feeling was real. Especially, when his mind now occupied with someone else and not that certain tall boy, they occupied his mind fast, but there’s still some missing part going on. Though his mind was occupied, but nothing could ever replace his empty heart except that certain tall boy named Ok Taecyeon.
And little did he know, his certain tall boy was watching him, from a far.
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After explaining to his other members about Nadia and that Junsu’s going to see her lot from now on, he could only received nodding from his bestfriends.
“Are you happy, hyung?” Wooyoung asked, and Junsu looked at Taecyeon from the corner of his eyes, the tall boy was sitting next to Nichkhun as he also waiting Junsu’s answer,
“Yes. I am happy.” Junsu answered and Taecyeon’s jaw clenched before he got up from his seat and entered his own room. Wooyoung smiled at his hyung and hugged him,
“As long as you are happy, hyung. Then me too.” Junsu sighed before he hugged Wooyoung back.
It was usual now that Junsu would bring Nadia and Ezra to their dorm, beside, Wooyoung and Chansung loved to play with Ezra. Both Nadia and Ezra laughter filled their empty house, as sometimes Nadia would cook for them, the used to empty dorm now changed to more comfortable one, like finally having a mother and you know you would be all alright. Well, at least that was the four guys feeling toward Nadia and Ezra as Taecyeon finally showed how much he hated it. He would be avoiding them as much as possible. He refused to talk about them when other boys talk over Nadia and Ezra.
“Why everything now is all about Nadia and Ezra? Nadia and Ezra? Nadia and Ezra???” Taecyeon questioned his four dongsaeng as he wearing his boots, showing his temper that surprised his friends. Junsu was nowhere to be finding since morning, and that probably pissed him more, since there’s another Junsu’s picture with Nadia leaked as they haven’t explained anything to the fans or media and Taecyeon wanted to talk to Junsu about it, talk about the solutions, because it could get worse, but how he could talk about it if the older boy was nowhere to be find?
“Then everything is about you and Jessica?” Junsu asked as Taecyeon pulled his feet down, he then looked to Junsu and he wasn’t surprised seeing Nadia and Ezra beside him, but he noticed how Junsu’s hand lingered to hers. The truth was Taecyeon and Jessica secret ‘dating’ also resurfaced on the internet, like it compete Junsu and Nadia news.
“Oh so you here.” Taecyeon stated as he stood up from his seat, he wanted to talk to Junsu about it as he thought it was the right time to say. He was facing Junsu, he stood in front of Junsu, just as he about to open his mouth, Taecyeon was staring at the older boy so closed as he could even felt the other’s warm breath to his lips, Taecyeon’s mind suddenly in mess, as he forgot what he about to say, he blinked, because Junsu’s eyes possessed to his mind as he couldn’t figure out what to do and his eyes slowly traveled to the other’s lips, it was so plump and red. Junsu eye brows ceased, he found Taecyeon’s eyes now changed to softer one as he nervously licked his upper lip, and that action almost bring Taecyeon to a level where he wanted to push the other and kissed him senseless right there as he didn’t care there’s his friends or Nadia.
“Taec?” Nichkhun’s voice awoke him as he cleared his throat, and Junsu noticed the transformation in the tall boy’s face as he stepped back and Taecyeon walked, bumped his shoulder to Junsu’s.
“Where are you going, hyung??” Wooyoung asked before Taecyeon answered,
“I’m going out with Jessica, for another scandal!” Taecyeon answered before he banged the door closed. Taecyeon looked like a mad man, but as soon as he banged the door closed, he was out of breath just behind the door, his heart was racing,
Kissed Junsu senseless? “What the fuck is that????” Taecyeon said as he touched his chest, tried to calm it down as the image of Junsu’s lips running through his head. He shook his head back and forth before yelling, “FUCK!!!!!” and stomped out of their villa.
Later that night, Dispatch leaked Taecyeon’s ‘secret’ date with Jessica, for the up tenth times.
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Junsu just staring at his phone’s screen as his other hand held on Ezra’s small hand. Junsu sighed as he put his phone to his pocket.
“What is it?” Nadia asked, knowing Junsu slightly annoyed.
They were now walking from 2PM villa to Nadia’s house, it wasn’t that far either.
“Nothing. It’s just another Taecsica’s pictures leaked over the net.”
“Ohh…” Nadia said as she walked beside Junsu.
“Junsu.”
“Hmmm…”
“I kinda wondering, is there anything I didn’t know about?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean, you. And that guy Taecyeon. He really pissed off before. Like totally mad. Are you sure its okay?” Junsu looked front to the empty streets; it was almost 8 o’clock at night, but the road already so empty.
“I don’t know.” Junsu shrugged, “I don’t know why he was so mad like earlier. He never acted that way toward people or me or us. Something must be bothering him.”
“Me?” Nadia asked, but Junsu immediately denied,
“Oh, it’s our relationship then.” She continued.
“Eh?”
“Junsu, actually, I know we are right now seeing each other a lot, so I need to ask you something.” She continued, “That Taecyeon, why your behavior is so different toward him? Why he gave you so much of that huge effect? What did he do to you?” Both of them stopped from their track as Ezra ran to the children’s park and Junsu pulled Nadia to the nearest bench, their eyes still watching over Ezra but neither of them said anything until Nadia turned to Junsu and looked at him.
“Junsu…Tell me.” Nadia noticed Junsu’s reaction as she also speculated couple of things. Knowing Junsu having difficulties to say the truth, Nadia cleared her throat, not so sure whether Junsu going to answer her question, but she asked anyway.
“Junsu…That Taecyeon…” Junsu silenced as his eyes looked front.
“Do you love him?” Nadia’s words was like a sword, it was rip open the entire covers Junsu had. Junsu looked aside to his now friend as his mouth trembled,
“Y-yes.” His tears already running as Nadia gasped.
“Aww Junsu….” She immediately pulled Junsu to her embrace as Junsu let out everything. His entire feelings now uncovered as it was now Junsu couldn’t control it any longer, he couldn’t hold it any longer. Junsu was sobbing to her shoulder as she gave smooth pats to the others back. Ezra stopped playing as he watched Junsu cried and immediately ran to Junsu, hugging him with his small arms. Junsu also pulled Ezra as his arms now lingered around Nadia and Ezra.
“Let it out, Junsu. Let it out.” And Junsu was sobbing hard.
“It’s okay.” Nadia whispered, “It’s okay. It’s okay.”
Nadia tears also running from her eyes as she remembered about his husband. And how Junsu being vulnerable like this reminded her so much of Ezra’s father. They realized that they are person who was left behind, they were left by love. But what they didn’t realized, there’s certain someone watched them from across the empty streets. It was Taecyeon, holding his now heart in pieces. His eyes couldn’t believe it though, how Junsu’s arms could lingered so wide and comfy just the way the older hugged both Nadia and Ezra. And what he couldn’t believe, that smiled, that small smiled Junsu used to had, Junsu used to give to him, it was now for someone else.
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Taecyeon walked to the villa as he couldn’t erase the image of the way Junsu pulled Nadia and Ezra to his embrace.
“Taec.” He stopped his track as he realized he was still holding his broken heart in his hand. He looked front and he saw Junsu, standing near their front door with his usual clothes, and a huge suitcase.
“Junsu….” Taecyeon’s heart fell from his hand to the ground as he ran to Junsu,
“Where are you going?? What’s with the suitcase?” he asked as Junsu could only smile.
“I have to go, Taec.” Junsu said as he walked front and brought his suitcase,
“Wait, just like that?? After the entire hardwork we had?? You just going to leave us?? Just like that?” Taecyeon said almost crying as he held on Junsu’s wrist but Junsu only turned around as he looked directly to Taecyeon’s eyes,
“I’m sorry, Taec. I can’t anymore.” Junsu let go off his wrist, “I can’t. I’m sorry.”
“Don’t apologize. What? What things you can’t do anymore? What is it? I can help.” Taecyeon still gripped on Junsu’s wrist tight.
“I can’t be with you any longer.” Junsu said just before Taecyeon’s eyes widen and released the other’s wrist,
“I’m sorry, Taec.” Junsu said before he hugged Taecyeon and leave. Taecyeon could only stand there, watching Junsu’s back gone through the thick fog. But Taecyeon clenched his fist as he ran, chasing after Junsu, he ran inside the thick fog but he couldn’t find Junsu anywhere near.
“Junsu!!!!” Taecyeon keep calling the older name as he searched around. His heart was about to explode as he couldn’t find Junsu.
“JUNSU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” Taecyeon yelled practically from his bed as he opened his eyes. He was sweating and panting. His heartbeat raced so fast he couldn’t even didn’t know how to stop it. He immediately closed his eyes with his arms, trying to focus to calm down, but just as he closed his eyes, the image of Junsu’s back gone through the fog worried him as he finally awoke from his bed. He was still out of breath as he finally stood up, making his way to his room door. He looked at to the watch in their living room; it was still one in the morning. He tip toed to the door next to his as he opened it slowly. He release a relieved sighed as he watched Junsu sleep under the blanket as his face was buried to the pillow. Taecyeon got inside the room and closed the door slowly. He then sat on the floor as his upper body rested in Junsu’s bed, he watched the older sleep so soundly and somewhat calmed by it, because it was just a dream, because Junsu was here. Taecyeon laid his head on the bed next to Junsu’s arm as he watched the older sleeping; he folded his feet in the floor, searching for a good position to watch his hyung sleeping. Slowly, tears were running from the taller boy eyes to the bridge of his nose, he caressed his hyung cheekbone as he whispered,
“Do you really love her, hyung?” he asked as he moved one single hair that dropped to Junsu’s eye lashes, “Really, hyung? More than you love us? More than you love me?”
Minutes staring, slowly Junsu’s eyes blinked open and Taecyeon immediately pulled his hand away,
“Taec…” Junsu creased his eyebrows, “What are you doing here?” he asked with his raw voice. Junsu noticed the line of the other’s tears in his bridge of nose,
“Did you just cry?” Now it was his hands that brushed against the other’s skin “Are you okay, Taecyeon?” Junsu fingers running to Taecyeon’s hair caressed it as Taecyeon closed his eyes, enjoying the other’s touch to his skin as everything now was so sensitive for Taecyeon liking. Junsu’s scent immediately reached his nostrils and Junsu’s caresses awoke his other part of himself that he’s been hiding.
“Taec?” Now Junsu’s fingers massaging his scalp as Taecyeon slowly opened his eyes,
“I had bad dream, Junsu.”
“What dream?” Junsu still caressed the other’s hair,
“A very bad bad bad bad bad bad dream.” Junsu smiled at his answered,
“Then what do you want me to do?” Junsu asked as now Taecyeon held on his wrist,
“Can I sleep with you here?” Junsu’s eyes widen at it, he was so surprised and Taecyeon could see doubt in the other’s eyes, but Taecyeon immediately stood up, pushing Junsu a little before he slipped into the blanket and laid his body, his arm reached for Junsu as he then hugged Junsu and put his head to Junsu’s chest, their feet bumped. Junsu blinked at the action,
“Junsu, just for this once, spoiled me.” Junsu finally gave up as he released a sigh and his fingers running back to Taecyeon’s hair and sometimes it ran to Taecyeon’s broad back, giving it caressed so Taecyeon could calm. Then Junsu kissed the tip of Taecyeon’s head as he whispered,
“Good night, Taecyeon-ah.”
Taecyeon could hear Junsu’s steady heartbeat as he lay comfortably in Junsu’s body. It was warm, pleasant and he loved it. He realized that he was now loved every part in Junsu’s body, including the arms that hugging him tight, the long sly fingers that running through his hair, his chest that holding Taecyeon’s upper body firmly, his legs that wrapped tightly with the tall boy’s. Taecyeon never thought it was going to be this beautiful for Taecyeon to handle. Taecyeon then could hear Junsu’s soft snores, even Taecyeon loved the other’s snores, like it was a sign that Junsu were alive and there, next to him.
Taecyeon couldn’t hold his tears as he gripped to Junsu’s t-shirt.
How can I let this man off from my grip? Taecyeon asked to himself as he buried his face to Junsu’s chest and pecked it before he goes deep into the slumber.
Rating: PG13
Pairing: Taecyeon/Junsu
Summary: About Taecsu
A/N: i really need to do this but i dont know about this chapter, but fuck it, i'm going to update it. hahahaha
Ezra was playing with Chansung and Wooyoung, as Nadia sat in the couch talking to Nichkhun and Junho. Taecyeon just had his bath as he eyes scanned the house for the older man’s presence, and his eyes caught something moves inside Junsu’s small recording studio. Just as Taecyeon about to move it wider,
“Yes, hyung. I understand.” Junsu voiced were heard, Taecyeon moved closer to the half open door, eavesdrop what Taecyeon guessed as Junsu’s conversation with JYP.
“Wait, hyung. You don’t understand, I like myself when I’m with her.” Junsu sounded so desperate, little did he know Taecyeon felt the same way, soon as he heard, ‘I like myself when I’m with her’.
Then you don’t like yourself when you with me, Junsu? Taecyeon questioned to himself as he steadied himself,
“I know. It’s just, just let me, this time, okay? I mean, I gave you that successful solo album, your profits and you know I already tried so hard for years and complied your every request and now, can you just please let me do this. Please, hyung.” Taecyeon’s face changed, completely. As much as he knew Junsu, he never heard the older boy begging for something except for something he really wanted and something that was so important that he could even risk everything. As much as he knew Junsu, his hyung only 3 times pleading to JYP, one, when he begged JYP to not let go Jaebeom, second, when he had his plastic surgery, and third when he begged to do his solo project.
Taecyeon blinked as his mouth agape. He never thought his hyung would beg for some scandal like this. He never thought Junsu would beg for girl like her. Unless, this was no scandal at all, that Junsu was serious. That Junsu was real about Nadia and Ezra. That Junsu’s weekly, monthly secret meeting with her finally had destination, aimed at something. Maybe this was that ‘explanation’ Junsu and Nadia going to explain. Taecyeon’s heart never beat this fast before. They never gave this type of weird reaction before. Not when his little brother decided to go to army earlier than him, not when he left his mom and dad, not when he broke up with his last girlfriend 4 years ago and definitely not when he was with Jessica.
It was all strange feelings for Taecyeon. Like he wanted to walk to Junsu and told him to stop whatever he’s going to do with Nadia. Like he wanted to beg Junsu for stop pleading at their boss. Too many thoughts at Taecyeon’s brain, and too many difference, weird feelings in his heart, he doesn’t even realized Junsu already standing in front of him.
“Taec?” Junsu questioned as Taecyeon blinked staring front to the older boy,
“What are you doing?” Taecyeon gulped, never thought Junsu were standing so closed to him,
“W-who do you just called?” Taecyeon asked,
“Ah…It was Jinyoung hyung.”
“Really? What he said? No, what you said?”
“Hmmm…I said I am dating her but he said the fact that Nadia is a widow is the one that will jeopardize my career. He also said, he will find me another girl to date, another Jessica to date.”
Taecyeon’s held on his chest as he heard the other’s explanation,
“Then what you said, Junsu?”
“I said I don’t want to date any girl except her.” Junsu smiled to Taecyeon,
“Then you begged.” Taecyeon whispered, looking straight to Junsu’s eyes as the other could only shrugged,
“It’s weird, huh?” Junsu said before he patted Taecyeon’s shoulder and walked off, leaving Taecyeon dumbfounded by all his answers.
Junsu turned around, his smiled immediately faded from his face. He was trying, trying so hard to cover everything, trying to cover that tingle feelings when Taecyeon asked what he said to Jinyoung hyung about Nadia. He was trying to cover the fact that since the first time; he realized Taecyeon was standing there. He was trying to cover that butterflies flying around his stomach when Taecyeon showed him that sad face when the tall boy heard his conversation. Junsu calmed himself, remembering that this was all nothing, it’s not Taecyeon who gave him that signs, but it was Junsu making things up.
Junsu looked front, to where Nadia and Ezra sitting and playing. He smiled warmly at them as he walked to them. Junsu bent down as he pulled Ezra off the ground, swung him in the air, and gave his other friends weird reaction as they thought they never saw Junsu this happy before. Both Wooyoung and Nichkhun stared at each other as Chansung and Junho also did the same, they could only shrugged it off before they finally smiled at their hyung as Ezra giggled hard and Nadia told Junsu to slow down. Junsu loved both Nadia and Ezra, though he felt like he was using them, but he like spending his time with them, that certain happy feeling was real. Especially, when his mind now occupied with someone else and not that certain tall boy, they occupied his mind fast, but there’s still some missing part going on. Though his mind was occupied, but nothing could ever replace his empty heart except that certain tall boy named Ok Taecyeon.
And little did he know, his certain tall boy was watching him, from a far.
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After explaining to his other members about Nadia and that Junsu’s going to see her lot from now on, he could only received nodding from his bestfriends.
“Are you happy, hyung?” Wooyoung asked, and Junsu looked at Taecyeon from the corner of his eyes, the tall boy was sitting next to Nichkhun as he also waiting Junsu’s answer,
“Yes. I am happy.” Junsu answered and Taecyeon’s jaw clenched before he got up from his seat and entered his own room. Wooyoung smiled at his hyung and hugged him,
“As long as you are happy, hyung. Then me too.” Junsu sighed before he hugged Wooyoung back.
It was usual now that Junsu would bring Nadia and Ezra to their dorm, beside, Wooyoung and Chansung loved to play with Ezra. Both Nadia and Ezra laughter filled their empty house, as sometimes Nadia would cook for them, the used to empty dorm now changed to more comfortable one, like finally having a mother and you know you would be all alright. Well, at least that was the four guys feeling toward Nadia and Ezra as Taecyeon finally showed how much he hated it. He would be avoiding them as much as possible. He refused to talk about them when other boys talk over Nadia and Ezra.
“Why everything now is all about Nadia and Ezra? Nadia and Ezra? Nadia and Ezra???” Taecyeon questioned his four dongsaeng as he wearing his boots, showing his temper that surprised his friends. Junsu was nowhere to be finding since morning, and that probably pissed him more, since there’s another Junsu’s picture with Nadia leaked as they haven’t explained anything to the fans or media and Taecyeon wanted to talk to Junsu about it, talk about the solutions, because it could get worse, but how he could talk about it if the older boy was nowhere to be find?
“Then everything is about you and Jessica?” Junsu asked as Taecyeon pulled his feet down, he then looked to Junsu and he wasn’t surprised seeing Nadia and Ezra beside him, but he noticed how Junsu’s hand lingered to hers. The truth was Taecyeon and Jessica secret ‘dating’ also resurfaced on the internet, like it compete Junsu and Nadia news.
“Oh so you here.” Taecyeon stated as he stood up from his seat, he wanted to talk to Junsu about it as he thought it was the right time to say. He was facing Junsu, he stood in front of Junsu, just as he about to open his mouth, Taecyeon was staring at the older boy so closed as he could even felt the other’s warm breath to his lips, Taecyeon’s mind suddenly in mess, as he forgot what he about to say, he blinked, because Junsu’s eyes possessed to his mind as he couldn’t figure out what to do and his eyes slowly traveled to the other’s lips, it was so plump and red. Junsu eye brows ceased, he found Taecyeon’s eyes now changed to softer one as he nervously licked his upper lip, and that action almost bring Taecyeon to a level where he wanted to push the other and kissed him senseless right there as he didn’t care there’s his friends or Nadia.
“Taec?” Nichkhun’s voice awoke him as he cleared his throat, and Junsu noticed the transformation in the tall boy’s face as he stepped back and Taecyeon walked, bumped his shoulder to Junsu’s.
“Where are you going, hyung??” Wooyoung asked before Taecyeon answered,
“I’m going out with Jessica, for another scandal!” Taecyeon answered before he banged the door closed. Taecyeon looked like a mad man, but as soon as he banged the door closed, he was out of breath just behind the door, his heart was racing,
Kissed Junsu senseless? “What the fuck is that????” Taecyeon said as he touched his chest, tried to calm it down as the image of Junsu’s lips running through his head. He shook his head back and forth before yelling, “FUCK!!!!!” and stomped out of their villa.
Later that night, Dispatch leaked Taecyeon’s ‘secret’ date with Jessica, for the up tenth times.
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Junsu just staring at his phone’s screen as his other hand held on Ezra’s small hand. Junsu sighed as he put his phone to his pocket.
“What is it?” Nadia asked, knowing Junsu slightly annoyed.
They were now walking from 2PM villa to Nadia’s house, it wasn’t that far either.
“Nothing. It’s just another Taecsica’s pictures leaked over the net.”
“Ohh…” Nadia said as she walked beside Junsu.
“Junsu.”
“Hmmm…”
“I kinda wondering, is there anything I didn’t know about?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean, you. And that guy Taecyeon. He really pissed off before. Like totally mad. Are you sure its okay?” Junsu looked front to the empty streets; it was almost 8 o’clock at night, but the road already so empty.
“I don’t know.” Junsu shrugged, “I don’t know why he was so mad like earlier. He never acted that way toward people or me or us. Something must be bothering him.”
“Me?” Nadia asked, but Junsu immediately denied,
“Oh, it’s our relationship then.” She continued.
“Eh?”
“Junsu, actually, I know we are right now seeing each other a lot, so I need to ask you something.” She continued, “That Taecyeon, why your behavior is so different toward him? Why he gave you so much of that huge effect? What did he do to you?” Both of them stopped from their track as Ezra ran to the children’s park and Junsu pulled Nadia to the nearest bench, their eyes still watching over Ezra but neither of them said anything until Nadia turned to Junsu and looked at him.
“Junsu…Tell me.” Nadia noticed Junsu’s reaction as she also speculated couple of things. Knowing Junsu having difficulties to say the truth, Nadia cleared her throat, not so sure whether Junsu going to answer her question, but she asked anyway.
“Junsu…That Taecyeon…” Junsu silenced as his eyes looked front.
“Do you love him?” Nadia’s words was like a sword, it was rip open the entire covers Junsu had. Junsu looked aside to his now friend as his mouth trembled,
“Y-yes.” His tears already running as Nadia gasped.
“Aww Junsu….” She immediately pulled Junsu to her embrace as Junsu let out everything. His entire feelings now uncovered as it was now Junsu couldn’t control it any longer, he couldn’t hold it any longer. Junsu was sobbing to her shoulder as she gave smooth pats to the others back. Ezra stopped playing as he watched Junsu cried and immediately ran to Junsu, hugging him with his small arms. Junsu also pulled Ezra as his arms now lingered around Nadia and Ezra.
“Let it out, Junsu. Let it out.” And Junsu was sobbing hard.
“It’s okay.” Nadia whispered, “It’s okay. It’s okay.”
Nadia tears also running from her eyes as she remembered about his husband. And how Junsu being vulnerable like this reminded her so much of Ezra’s father. They realized that they are person who was left behind, they were left by love. But what they didn’t realized, there’s certain someone watched them from across the empty streets. It was Taecyeon, holding his now heart in pieces. His eyes couldn’t believe it though, how Junsu’s arms could lingered so wide and comfy just the way the older hugged both Nadia and Ezra. And what he couldn’t believe, that smiled, that small smiled Junsu used to had, Junsu used to give to him, it was now for someone else.
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Taecyeon walked to the villa as he couldn’t erase the image of the way Junsu pulled Nadia and Ezra to his embrace.
“Taec.” He stopped his track as he realized he was still holding his broken heart in his hand. He looked front and he saw Junsu, standing near their front door with his usual clothes, and a huge suitcase.
“Junsu….” Taecyeon’s heart fell from his hand to the ground as he ran to Junsu,
“Where are you going?? What’s with the suitcase?” he asked as Junsu could only smile.
“I have to go, Taec.” Junsu said as he walked front and brought his suitcase,
“Wait, just like that?? After the entire hardwork we had?? You just going to leave us?? Just like that?” Taecyeon said almost crying as he held on Junsu’s wrist but Junsu only turned around as he looked directly to Taecyeon’s eyes,
“I’m sorry, Taec. I can’t anymore.” Junsu let go off his wrist, “I can’t. I’m sorry.”
“Don’t apologize. What? What things you can’t do anymore? What is it? I can help.” Taecyeon still gripped on Junsu’s wrist tight.
“I can’t be with you any longer.” Junsu said just before Taecyeon’s eyes widen and released the other’s wrist,
“I’m sorry, Taec.” Junsu said before he hugged Taecyeon and leave. Taecyeon could only stand there, watching Junsu’s back gone through the thick fog. But Taecyeon clenched his fist as he ran, chasing after Junsu, he ran inside the thick fog but he couldn’t find Junsu anywhere near.
“Junsu!!!!” Taecyeon keep calling the older name as he searched around. His heart was about to explode as he couldn’t find Junsu.
“JUNSU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” Taecyeon yelled practically from his bed as he opened his eyes. He was sweating and panting. His heartbeat raced so fast he couldn’t even didn’t know how to stop it. He immediately closed his eyes with his arms, trying to focus to calm down, but just as he closed his eyes, the image of Junsu’s back gone through the fog worried him as he finally awoke from his bed. He was still out of breath as he finally stood up, making his way to his room door. He looked at to the watch in their living room; it was still one in the morning. He tip toed to the door next to his as he opened it slowly. He release a relieved sighed as he watched Junsu sleep under the blanket as his face was buried to the pillow. Taecyeon got inside the room and closed the door slowly. He then sat on the floor as his upper body rested in Junsu’s bed, he watched the older sleep so soundly and somewhat calmed by it, because it was just a dream, because Junsu was here. Taecyeon laid his head on the bed next to Junsu’s arm as he watched the older sleeping; he folded his feet in the floor, searching for a good position to watch his hyung sleeping. Slowly, tears were running from the taller boy eyes to the bridge of his nose, he caressed his hyung cheekbone as he whispered,
“Do you really love her, hyung?” he asked as he moved one single hair that dropped to Junsu’s eye lashes, “Really, hyung? More than you love us? More than you love me?”
Minutes staring, slowly Junsu’s eyes blinked open and Taecyeon immediately pulled his hand away,
“Taec…” Junsu creased his eyebrows, “What are you doing here?” he asked with his raw voice. Junsu noticed the line of the other’s tears in his bridge of nose,
“Did you just cry?” Now it was his hands that brushed against the other’s skin “Are you okay, Taecyeon?” Junsu fingers running to Taecyeon’s hair caressed it as Taecyeon closed his eyes, enjoying the other’s touch to his skin as everything now was so sensitive for Taecyeon liking. Junsu’s scent immediately reached his nostrils and Junsu’s caresses awoke his other part of himself that he’s been hiding.
“Taec?” Now Junsu’s fingers massaging his scalp as Taecyeon slowly opened his eyes,
“I had bad dream, Junsu.”
“What dream?” Junsu still caressed the other’s hair,
“A very bad bad bad bad bad bad dream.” Junsu smiled at his answered,
“Then what do you want me to do?” Junsu asked as now Taecyeon held on his wrist,
“Can I sleep with you here?” Junsu’s eyes widen at it, he was so surprised and Taecyeon could see doubt in the other’s eyes, but Taecyeon immediately stood up, pushing Junsu a little before he slipped into the blanket and laid his body, his arm reached for Junsu as he then hugged Junsu and put his head to Junsu’s chest, their feet bumped. Junsu blinked at the action,
“Junsu, just for this once, spoiled me.” Junsu finally gave up as he released a sigh and his fingers running back to Taecyeon’s hair and sometimes it ran to Taecyeon’s broad back, giving it caressed so Taecyeon could calm. Then Junsu kissed the tip of Taecyeon’s head as he whispered,
“Good night, Taecyeon-ah.”
Taecyeon could hear Junsu’s steady heartbeat as he lay comfortably in Junsu’s body. It was warm, pleasant and he loved it. He realized that he was now loved every part in Junsu’s body, including the arms that hugging him tight, the long sly fingers that running through his hair, his chest that holding Taecyeon’s upper body firmly, his legs that wrapped tightly with the tall boy’s. Taecyeon never thought it was going to be this beautiful for Taecyeon to handle. Taecyeon then could hear Junsu’s soft snores, even Taecyeon loved the other’s snores, like it was a sign that Junsu were alive and there, next to him.
Taecyeon couldn’t hold his tears as he gripped to Junsu’s t-shirt.
How can I let this man off from my grip? Taecyeon asked to himself as he buried his face to Junsu’s chest and pecked it before he goes deep into the slumber.