May 23, 2005 14:06
you know over the years i have faced some tough things like being homless, loosing close friends, leaving japan, and not being able to get a job. But even after all of that i have found myself as a last ditch effort having to put what little trust i have left in this government to help me servive. I am going to enroll in the job core on the 22 and hopefully after my 2 year stay when i come out i will be far better off then i ever have been befor, i have to give up things in order to do this but it seems like trivial matters at this point. i wont be making it to AX or comic con for that time and my plans to go back to japan in a timely manner are now shot but hopfully when my 25 birthday rolls around i will be liberated in the fact of knowing that this horrable part of my life will be over. i get to leave on the weekends and i get to live in a dorm with 3 meals a day so i cant and wont complain. i asked and i might be able to get a net connection in my room but it is rare to get such a request, but if it does come to be i will be updating this LJ every chance i get. i know i tend to go on and ramble about my problems and say things that i feel are wrong with the world, along with bitching and moaning about the past but rest asured this is the final post like that, i rave realized that i have been holding on to that stuff like a crutch and now i need to let it all go. i love you all every body that reads this LJ knows that i mean it, it is just the person i am, i will try and stay in touch as much as i can and with my allowance at the job core i hope to get a cell phone, till our paths cross yet again, ja matta ne, tomodatchi's