Fear Series: Narcissism and Unnecessary Loss
Jeez, I didn't realize how long it had been since I've blogged. Time really has a tendency to fly by whenever you've bitten off more than you can swallow. Well, in my case it's really more like force-fed, but whatever. So narcissism and unnecessary loss, I may just be at a somewhat loss for words. Nah, I'm sure I'll find something to talk about.
Warning:
All of my problems are interrelated. Thusly so, there will be a fair amount of repetition between these blogs.
Narcissism
Let me first say that I oftentimes think of myself as a paradox. Paradoxes aren't usually used in reference to people not to my knowledge at least. When I used to hear the word I would think of funny phrases like 'light-weight', but for the past while I can only think of myself. I love myself, really I do but at the same time I down-right dislike so many facets of myself that I wonder how I can even consider what I have for myself as love. Anyway, that is not really the point. Though I may pick apart different aspects of my appearance, in general, I tend to think of myself as pretty good looking. In fact, I'm obsessed with myself. Doesn't make sense to me but I'm incredibly vain. And I always have been. I spend more time primping (especially in these later years) than any tomboy should. *Sidenote* I've always been a tomboy but I'm morphing into a girly-girl...I know, it scares me as well. But back to reality, one of these days I feel that my narcissism is going to be the death of me. Not in the effect of pining away for myself or wrecking a vehicle because I'm staring lovingly at my own reflection. But I just have a sneaking suspicion that I should calm things down or else...
Unnecessary Loss
I have a wicked fear of losing things for no real reason at all. Although there is a reason behind all of my losses, I don't think it is necessary. There's nothing really that I can do or really say further about this. I don't like losing friends, family, pets and that fear causes me to cry almost instantaneously upon thinking about it. Loss is a part of life, this much I know, but that doesn't make it any better or easier to swallow.
I have no idea about what I may talk about next so really my Fear Series is up in the air.
Until Next Time!
I'm Yours,
Sami
Warning:
All of my problems are interrelated. Thusly so, there will be a fair amount of repetition between these blogs.
Narcissism
Let me first say that I oftentimes think of myself as a paradox. Paradoxes aren't usually used in reference to people not to my knowledge at least. When I used to hear the word I would think of funny phrases like 'light-weight', but for the past while I can only think of myself. I love myself, really I do but at the same time I down-right dislike so many facets of myself that I wonder how I can even consider what I have for myself as love. Anyway, that is not really the point. Though I may pick apart different aspects of my appearance, in general, I tend to think of myself as pretty good looking. In fact, I'm obsessed with myself. Doesn't make sense to me but I'm incredibly vain. And I always have been. I spend more time primping (especially in these later years) than any tomboy should. *Sidenote* I've always been a tomboy but I'm morphing into a girly-girl...I know, it scares me as well. But back to reality, one of these days I feel that my narcissism is going to be the death of me. Not in the effect of pining away for myself or wrecking a vehicle because I'm staring lovingly at my own reflection. But I just have a sneaking suspicion that I should calm things down or else...
Unnecessary Loss
I have a wicked fear of losing things for no real reason at all. Although there is a reason behind all of my losses, I don't think it is necessary. There's nothing really that I can do or really say further about this. I don't like losing friends, family, pets and that fear causes me to cry almost instantaneously upon thinking about it. Loss is a part of life, this much I know, but that doesn't make it any better or easier to swallow.
I have no idea about what I may talk about next so really my Fear Series is up in the air.
Until Next Time!
I'm Yours,
Sami