Never thought I'd see the day I'd say this but
I think I'm quitting RPing?
I've tried repeatedly to try and get into a groove, but I usually end up giving one reply (two if you're lucky) before you never hear from me again. It's that bad. I even idled out of a game I was in without saying anything. I'm really sorry to everyone I blew off within the past 4+ months -- I didn't mean to be rude or ignore you, I just can't find the motivation to reply anymore, no matter how much I want to. Most of you already know how notoriously slow I am when I'm going at a normal pace, what more for when I'm not feeling it?
I don't know if it's because my classes are really hard this semester, or if I'm legitimately losing interest, but the fact that I keep waffling back and forth on the issue is killing me. The decline's been there since early summer (some of you might remember I had to go on a two month hiatus and/or drop whatever games I was in at the time), and it just keeps getting worse and worse. But I have so many good memories about RPing that it's really hard for me to decide to quit. But if I don't, I feel like I'm just going to keep beating myself up over it for no reason.
I'm having all this guilt and I'm not even in a game (...I think. Maybe I should drop by Marina and actually drop if I haven't been kicked out already). My head says that's completely irrational, but I dunno. I have time to mess around on tumblr or to take apart my PS2 or make some silly hats, so why can't I reply to my tags? I feel like I have no excuses.
Everyone's saying the first rule of RPing is to have fun. And I'm just not having any anymore. I'm hoping this'll just be a long break, or maybe I'll magically be in the mood again later. But for now, I have to set my foot down and say farewell LJRP.
Hopefully we can still keep in touch over other things?
I've tried repeatedly to try and get into a groove, but I usually end up giving one reply (two if you're lucky) before you never hear from me again. It's that bad. I even idled out of a game I was in without saying anything. I'm really sorry to everyone I blew off within the past 4+ months -- I didn't mean to be rude or ignore you, I just can't find the motivation to reply anymore, no matter how much I want to. Most of you already know how notoriously slow I am when I'm going at a normal pace, what more for when I'm not feeling it?
I don't know if it's because my classes are really hard this semester, or if I'm legitimately losing interest, but the fact that I keep waffling back and forth on the issue is killing me. The decline's been there since early summer (some of you might remember I had to go on a two month hiatus and/or drop whatever games I was in at the time), and it just keeps getting worse and worse. But I have so many good memories about RPing that it's really hard for me to decide to quit. But if I don't, I feel like I'm just going to keep beating myself up over it for no reason.
I'm having all this guilt and I'm not even in a game (...I think. Maybe I should drop by Marina and actually drop if I haven't been kicked out already). My head says that's completely irrational, but I dunno. I have time to mess around on tumblr or to take apart my PS2 or make some silly hats, so why can't I reply to my tags? I feel like I have no excuses.
Everyone's saying the first rule of RPing is to have fun. And I'm just not having any anymore. I'm hoping this'll just be a long break, or maybe I'll magically be in the mood again later. But for now, I have to set my foot down and say farewell LJRP.
Hopefully we can still keep in touch over other things?