The loss of friends you didn't have...
Well i took a quiz and the results are odd because im in one of those moods where im having a really hard time dealing with loss and dealing with the old friends who i love so much who dont talk to me anymore, and the quiz speaks of how much im in love. its funny becayse actually last night i stayed up watching the pamela anderson roast, and i was deleriously tired when it was over, but right before i fell asleep i felt really, inlove. (not with pamela, although i did decied i actually have respect for her now, except for the whole PETA thing) i dont know im just having issues lately and i really want to call these people who i tried so hard to stay friends with and i cant do it. some of them didnt even end on bad terms and i cant friggin do it. i dont know im really hurt right now...
but i had a good birthday party. thank you for those who came. i love you. and i absolutly loved all my presents. fantastic, fantastic. made me feel much better about turning 20, although i couldnt have any cake... =*(
sara and jo r in town with lenny.
i hung out with Dani yesterday.
and im just having major issues with people for some reason. i just wish i wasnt so caring. i wish i could just blow off these people and act like im not hurt by them. and i really wish that i could bring them back.
these are just a few of the people i cant stop thinking about and its so weird because i havent talked to some of them in freaking years!!! i think i need psychological help. i just want you people to stop haunting my life.
Keith, Cody, Andy, Grady, Ceceline (im so sorry),Fran, Tracie, Alan, Matt, Drew, Sara, Megan, and im going to stop now because im making myself even more upset.
i just feel that i put a lot into these relationships and i have nothing to show for it and for some reason i still care so much about them. some of them i shouldnt care at all and i still do. it pisses me off. im way too soft.
Anyways...
Im still sick and just eating bland foods. i had green beans the other night and got really sick the next morning.
i dont know. im going to go watch a movie.
O, im supposed to see if i can be heald by holistics. (dont know how to spell that) so ill definatly write about that later.
*Jules
QUIZ RESULTS:
People see love in your eyes. You either love
everyone around you ooor...somebody's in
loooove, no? Seriously, though... You seem to
have a lot of love in your heart right now.
You're singing songs and picking flowers...or
at least you feel like doing so. And we can't
forget floating on air, right? Well, don't let
anyone ruin that for you, and if things don't
turn out...don't worry over it. There are worse
things, and you know it.
What can people see in your eyes?(great ANIME pics)((IMPROVED!!!))
brought to you by Quizilla
"And our scars remind is that the past is real... i tear my heart open just to feel.."
Oh, and i got a fortune cookie the other day that said "stop searching forever, happiness is right beside you." well i looked on both sides of me and there was noone there... a chair and a wall... thank you happiness...
but i had a good birthday party. thank you for those who came. i love you. and i absolutly loved all my presents. fantastic, fantastic. made me feel much better about turning 20, although i couldnt have any cake... =*(
sara and jo r in town with lenny.
i hung out with Dani yesterday.
and im just having major issues with people for some reason. i just wish i wasnt so caring. i wish i could just blow off these people and act like im not hurt by them. and i really wish that i could bring them back.
these are just a few of the people i cant stop thinking about and its so weird because i havent talked to some of them in freaking years!!! i think i need psychological help. i just want you people to stop haunting my life.
Keith, Cody, Andy, Grady, Ceceline (im so sorry),Fran, Tracie, Alan, Matt, Drew, Sara, Megan, and im going to stop now because im making myself even more upset.
i just feel that i put a lot into these relationships and i have nothing to show for it and for some reason i still care so much about them. some of them i shouldnt care at all and i still do. it pisses me off. im way too soft.
Anyways...
Im still sick and just eating bland foods. i had green beans the other night and got really sick the next morning.
i dont know. im going to go watch a movie.
O, im supposed to see if i can be heald by holistics. (dont know how to spell that) so ill definatly write about that later.
*Jules
QUIZ RESULTS:
People see love in your eyes. You either love
everyone around you ooor...somebody's in
loooove, no? Seriously, though... You seem to
have a lot of love in your heart right now.
You're singing songs and picking flowers...or
at least you feel like doing so. And we can't
forget floating on air, right? Well, don't let
anyone ruin that for you, and if things don't
turn out...don't worry over it. There are worse
things, and you know it.
What can people see in your eyes?(great ANIME pics)((IMPROVED!!!))
brought to you by Quizilla
"And our scars remind is that the past is real... i tear my heart open just to feel.."
Oh, and i got a fortune cookie the other day that said "stop searching forever, happiness is right beside you." well i looked on both sides of me and there was noone there... a chair and a wall... thank you happiness...