Something worth posting about
So it's been over a year since I posted.
My posts up till now have been mostly non-personal posts about information I had come across on the web. For years I was waiting for a reason to post, but couldn't quite get over the fact that everything important that I had to talk about was something I didn't need to share with others. There's a fine line between topics that should be posted as an lj, and topics that should be discussed with a professional. :)
For a year now I've wanted to post thoughts/reflections for my kids. Up until a month ago it would have been for my potential kids, but now it's for Jonas, and whoever may come after.
Every day I find that there are so many things I wish I could tell him. I wish I could explain the pitfalls that are coming, and the joys that make it all worthwhile. If I could only sit down with him and go over what's happened to me, and why I made the decisions I did, maybe he'll avoid the mistakes I've made, and find his own mistake ridden path to follow? If I had the chance to go back and change it, I wouldn't. I made the best decision I could in each individual moment leading up till now, and I'd make all the same choices again if I were back in that situation with the same information I knew then.
What will happen however, is that he'll get older, and by the time he needs to hear all this stuff, my memory of those events will have long ago faded, and we'll have our own history between us, and I may never get to share with him the pearls of wisdom I have in my head today. In the interest of keeping the post short, and getting back to work at the end of my lunch break, I'll leave him with this for today:
No matter how good, and no matter how crummy, life may get... it will be different tomorrow. Know that the peaks of your happiness are fleeting, and enjoy every second of them while they occur. Know that the depths of your depression are also fleeting, and no matter how easy it may sound to stop trying, tomorrow will bring something new, something different. Try as best you can to live within every moment, whether it is a sad one or a happy one, because every moment is precious. We can spend our day wishing for yesterday, but tomorrow we'll realize that we wasted today. We can spend our day waiting for tomorrow, but tomorrow will come in due time, and today will never come again.
As a side note: Your dad doesn't believe in an afterlife. He thinks that when we close our eyes that final time, there is nothing left for us but non-existence. He needs to work much harder to follow his own advice, but he wants you to make the most of each and every day. Each day is precious, as it may be our last, but always assume there will be a tomorrow, and never squander tomorrow with today's actions.
My posts up till now have been mostly non-personal posts about information I had come across on the web. For years I was waiting for a reason to post, but couldn't quite get over the fact that everything important that I had to talk about was something I didn't need to share with others. There's a fine line between topics that should be posted as an lj, and topics that should be discussed with a professional. :)
For a year now I've wanted to post thoughts/reflections for my kids. Up until a month ago it would have been for my potential kids, but now it's for Jonas, and whoever may come after.
Every day I find that there are so many things I wish I could tell him. I wish I could explain the pitfalls that are coming, and the joys that make it all worthwhile. If I could only sit down with him and go over what's happened to me, and why I made the decisions I did, maybe he'll avoid the mistakes I've made, and find his own mistake ridden path to follow? If I had the chance to go back and change it, I wouldn't. I made the best decision I could in each individual moment leading up till now, and I'd make all the same choices again if I were back in that situation with the same information I knew then.
What will happen however, is that he'll get older, and by the time he needs to hear all this stuff, my memory of those events will have long ago faded, and we'll have our own history between us, and I may never get to share with him the pearls of wisdom I have in my head today. In the interest of keeping the post short, and getting back to work at the end of my lunch break, I'll leave him with this for today:
No matter how good, and no matter how crummy, life may get... it will be different tomorrow. Know that the peaks of your happiness are fleeting, and enjoy every second of them while they occur. Know that the depths of your depression are also fleeting, and no matter how easy it may sound to stop trying, tomorrow will bring something new, something different. Try as best you can to live within every moment, whether it is a sad one or a happy one, because every moment is precious. We can spend our day wishing for yesterday, but tomorrow we'll realize that we wasted today. We can spend our day waiting for tomorrow, but tomorrow will come in due time, and today will never come again.
As a side note: Your dad doesn't believe in an afterlife. He thinks that when we close our eyes that final time, there is nothing left for us but non-existence. He needs to work much harder to follow his own advice, but he wants you to make the most of each and every day. Each day is precious, as it may be our last, but always assume there will be a tomorrow, and never squander tomorrow with today's actions.