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This is fucked up.
You know when you dream and you KNOW you're dreaming and that you'll want to remember it after you wake up and sometimes you do/don't? Well that happened to me last night but the memory was triggered in the worst fucking way possible.
There's this song, "Yokan" by Dir en Grey that always made me think of Marz, but for what reason, I really don't know. It has always seemed to me to be a happier song and even their outfits in the PV are white and everything bright. The only connection would be that he loves them and he loves Gauze.
I was looking through videos and I found the PV with subtitles and I had never thought to translate the song. I started watching it, amazed by the lyrics and then it fucking hit me. I dreamt I was with him and everything was perfect. He was happy, and I was happy because I could trust him. It was just an amazing dream.
What makes it awful is the fact that the lyrics so closely suited the situation that it fucking triggered the memory of a past dream in my subconscious. Not cool.
I hate him so much sometimes and its ridiculous because he's so much like Erik sometimes that it's fucking crazy.
Ugh, I give up.
You know when you dream and you KNOW you're dreaming and that you'll want to remember it after you wake up and sometimes you do/don't? Well that happened to me last night but the memory was triggered in the worst fucking way possible.
There's this song, "Yokan" by Dir en Grey that always made me think of Marz, but for what reason, I really don't know. It has always seemed to me to be a happier song and even their outfits in the PV are white and everything bright. The only connection would be that he loves them and he loves Gauze.
I was looking through videos and I found the PV with subtitles and I had never thought to translate the song. I started watching it, amazed by the lyrics and then it fucking hit me. I dreamt I was with him and everything was perfect. He was happy, and I was happy because I could trust him. It was just an amazing dream.
What makes it awful is the fact that the lyrics so closely suited the situation that it fucking triggered the memory of a past dream in my subconscious. Not cool.
I hate him so much sometimes and its ridiculous because he's so much like Erik sometimes that it's fucking crazy.
Ugh, I give up.